living in this world which is filled with sadness has endless scripts of sadness to offer and has made me wonder in alot of ways that am i doing the right thing or not but i am not to judge i could only just sit and wait till times will tell .. and i know that i've never been a perfect man but atleast i am not far from being close to being called a jerk . countless thoughts placed into real scenario and one by one has come to reality and it has taken me back but then i could not say i did not expect this coming. . but then i would not care that much either.. all i can say is that i've always given special treatments to a certain someone but then apparently it was taken for granted i could not care anymore because i've moved on .. and i am really happy with my future coming prospects and to weight things i think i should have done this ages ago and not linger in my sightless past .I feel so disconnected as in i've got no idea what is all my friend up to and what are they doing and i do miss those day when we can go crazy and spending days doing pointless things counting days awaiting for it to end . i've always been thankful for being who i am .. i am not perfect but then i always try to present the best as i can and i know waiting for things to change would not make a difference but then somehow this would end one day .. and well .. even if the special treatment was somehow striped of i did still give you privileges way beyond others and yet it was enough .. i have nothing to say just that feeling why would i ever spend so much time doing pointless thing .. my new moto using brain thinking logic making sense !

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