i really like the feeling of being me at times and i hated the fact that i am always drawn to reality i love that fact that in the dreams we can be anything we want but when we wake up from the dream everything changes because we once felt that everything was perfect and in reality u would know that how messed up your life is .I have been good or should i say i've never been better .. everything is changing but then i don't know how long does it take for me to live the life i want to live and how much effort i have to put up to do things i want to do . the complicated things that i went through nobody has to ever understand me but it does not hurt to at least think of the other side of the picture .How come when it seems like the richer peoples always have the upper hand towards everything and how come it was the poorer side that always have to give in .hmmm this post is so messy and everything is all over the place but then what i was trying to imply is that your lucky that you have a rich family and thats all oh well i am no one to judge a person for his actions . Then i know i am not somewhat perfect either . assignments are due in about 72 hours and i am going to finish everything tomorrow ! arghhh i hope this time we get to atleast get 20 and i would be so freaking happy but then oh well !! cross fingers.. short random post !

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