ever been bored of life ? ever feel like sometimes the pot of gold awaiting at the end of the other side of the rainbow wasn't worth it ? countless times that good friend called "trouble" stubble on my door step and each visit the burden increase significantly and each time i strive to overcome the obstacle another obstacle emerges. this is what i call life . some people tell me how blessed i am but the actual fact is that they would never know how i feel until they've become me and tried living as me perhaps for an entire year. they would never understand the problems i am going though and never understand how hard it is to just make things go right .how much effort i tried to keep everything as one and try to keep everything intact so many things that i would like to just voice out yet everything seems so hard . this part of me that is been torn inside out and beaten by fate has its ugly bruises.SO MANY PROMISES AND YET SO MUCH DISAPPOINTMENTS .I have no faith in waiting for miracles.I know i was blessed with somewhat a good life but then perhaps i would not be greedy in asking for more because my blessings seems so flawed if you compare it with others and also weighting in the scale it is not worth the effort . if i was meant for greatness i understand the importance of building a characteristic but then what if i wasn't build for greatness why am i putting so much effort into this . are the efforts going to be fruitful or i would just be someone working for someone in the . the future is so gloomy and i have not even one bit of interest in doing all sorts of things that could earn a decent living . maybe earning the average joe salary ain't my thing i just hope life gets better i am just ranting about the disappointments in life

PERHAPS i am not all that great but i don't want to be an average joe :)

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