me and my insane life !

simpleton mind

2012-01-12T10:37:00.000-08:00

cheers to the freaking new year everybody !!! *fireworks*

as you all know blogging has been my thing for releasing stress. the only reason i come to blog is to actually release my stress !! i know that i don't have many readers infact i do not have any at all :D hehe well this year should be a good year as last year was somewhat good somewhat bad ! dramatic changes and dramatic people. as the tittle suggest i am faced with a simpleton mind person. GAWD !this is a rather painful experience that i wish other wouldn't have to face ! BETRAYAL HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF THE LEADING ANTAGONIST in my life !well i am always faced with multiple face people . OR maybe in my presences they feel insecure and has the desire to backstab or betray. well in anyways life has so much to offer to them but they tend to take things for granted.

the story i wanna share with you revolves around me and my friend, one whom i call dear to and someone who used to be significant in my life, he was rather special ! not in the sexual way , i tend to classify him as my boyfriend in regards to my bestfriend. Well he has very good qualities that made me respect him and also treat him like my little brother. well not as much but he has alot of control in my life because i tend to pay more attention to words he speak of because they used to be unbias ! recently i am faced with a situation whereby this bestfriend of mine started dating a acquaintance of mine ! well this person is one hell of an ugly bitch both personality and appearance. she was lessbian and has a history of dating both men and women. THE LEADING INDICATION THAT THIS GIRL IS MESSED UP AS HER LEG IS OPEN AS OFTEN AS 7 11 IS ;D HENCE SLUT. well let alone her arrogance to actually spoil my friendship with my bestfriend is unforgivable .

now i don't want to mention names and i do not intend to go further on her actions and childishness but then let this statement alone tell the story . A BROTHER THAT CAN DESSERT YOU FOR SEX IS NOT A BROTHER INTEND, I'VE SPEND ENOUGH TIME DWELLING ON THIS MATTER AND I THINK by far i have rant too much among my peers in regards to seeking opinion and advice now i have already done my best in reconciling the relationship but this friend of mine stood very high up with huge arrogance and has the audacity to ignore me :)

let alone his foolishness dig his grave. i may not the best friend to others but i don't think i deserve to be disregarded so lowly . FOR ALL I CAN SAY PICK UR PATH PROPERLY AND NEVER REGRET UR MISTAKES

the rather sad truth .

2011-11-16T11:35:00.000-08:00

the emotions i am facing i somewhat depressing, during times like these i like to remind myself that i shouldn't ever place so much emotions in any form of relationship because things always go bad when it comes to me whoever the relationship is about. countless situation where i have encountered that changed my opinion towards friends and yet i still believe that there is always faith in the greater good of humanity.

Man and women all forms , race , ethics and background walks the earth , some whom are vicious , stupid , sly and truly just ugly. recently i've came across several stupid peoples and countless ugly people. But the one that i would like to emphasize most is my "best friend" the term for bestfriend usually meant the best of friends and ideally mutual, friends whom both recognizes both party as the most compatible of friends among countless friends . this friend in particular is a friend that i know since primary school and he's someone i've grown to trust and respect because he for one keeps his words and probably am exile from my world. Recently i did a huge mistake to bring him into my circle of friends . In the beginning everything was smooth and the pace taken wasn't really tough but then somehow things started getting ugly and of all my friend became stupid and blinded by "love" this love aint the ordinary love whereby i feel that things can be opened . the person he choose to date was indeed someone with much "history" and i recon everything done by them was pure childish . It came to a point where my sexuality preference was a doubt by my "friend" and he thought i was gay too *ironically speaking being nice to a person should be limited by gender? well then there was more than these and the fight went on for days . i find the fight rather pointless and i proposed that we forget about things , but then again things sparked because he than choose to hide things from me and then it became rather stupid .

on and on this story is rather pointless , i sincerely hope you would understand where i am coming from and i hope he wakes up from his blindness , but then i would emphasize that i know what kinda friend i am and i know my value and my position . if you think that you could discard me and then at a later point of time approach me i hope you better come with your best shot because i don't like this kinda thing. i offer to talk to you properly but yet you wanna be stubborn i was nice enough to ask for a clear cut answer and if this answer really requires u to think so much , the next time u try to talk to me i hope your prepared to wait :)

2011-11-01T23:42:00.001-07:00

how pathetic i have become . i came to a point where i have to literally beg to be friend with another. sighs .. this is something i would always remember recently i lost two of my best friends whom i knew since very early stages in my life one that i grew fond of and another one was someone who was my comfort zone. needless to say these people are friends that i would accompany me through the walk of life. but recently perhaps i have jinx and cause the friendship to break. back during my birthday this year i was having the best time of my life having my girlfriend beside me and i was accompanied by fellow friends that i truly treasure but then 10 months down the road i came to a cross road where i am left without 2 best friend and a girl whom i liked. ironically i dun know whats happening but then somehow everything seems to go from bad to worse but then situations of other things have changed to be better. it seems like a particular person has torn our friendship apart with one and tried to break a few in another and i am deeply sadden by the fact that my once close friend refuse to talk to me. i am disrespected and truly disgrace myself to a point where i feel like i am practically pathetic ! honestly i have no idea why must i go through this friend crisis over and over again to learn that no matter how much effort i place in its always the wrong amount. its either god is playing pranks on me on i am just "phail.com" =.= this word friend really means alot to me and yet sometimes i feel like i've always get annoyed by the things they do. should i even consult him further and disgrace myself further ?

pains

2011-09-16T10:02:00.000-07:00

this really pains me to see how things are with my life at the moment . god has play its pranks on me making every word i say against me . i treasure my friends alot but i dun know why i have to cross path with those that i hold dear to and seriously this is getting a little annoying . i always have communication problem with peers now days and the situation has gotten worse. i do not wish to actually fight with them but then somehow it always ended up badly. i think i have a very high ego and this is killing me and the many friends around me . no matter how close we are i tend to just flare when i snap and then when i do seriously i would regret how i reacted but then i acted not without reasons but then the magnitude was beyond my control. honestly i think i should just stay away from my friends before i hurt them more because this is going out of control badly . One of the obvious reasons i am writing this is because i recently lost 2 of my childhood friends people that i hold dear to . at one point we were the closes and now everything has rumbled i seriously wanted to remedy it but then my efforts are render useless now .. and all i could say is i am sorry i overreacted . I think i am living in a denial and i think i have issues with alot of problems god has made this year such memorable yet torturing for me as a while i seriously wish i could have corrected my mistakes or maybe i should back of with my ego next time .

time to review myself

2011-06-20T23:34:00.000-07:00

when i say life has been wonderful i ought to be lying and back to back i have always been burden by many factors in life that makes me become an introvert i can't keep up with a lot of things happening in my life and i would always come to a crossroad . This time i choose to leave my comfortable yet torturing life of Melbourne and come home to my sweet cottage :D

If you asked me what has been bothering me over the past few months , i would tell you same old same old .Ironically speaking i face the same routine here and yet it gets me every time because i hate a few things generally speaking betrayal , hypocrisy and the all time favorite *BACKSTABBERS* knowingly i ain't the brightest among all mankind and certainly ain't the best person to go to for a list of things.God has not been friendly to me in many ways alot of choices i've made weren't given an option to begin with and i would like to add that the choices weren't really sweet. But then all of god's doing has its reason to build a person for their up coming challenge in life.

lets start of with the things that happen over a certain period of time things that i personally felt embarrassed to mention , well its not like i have alot of fans or readers and i certainly know that the only person reading this blog would be me :D but well its gonna be a case of a "diary of a whimpy kid " well my life is sort of like his but then i am not stuck in between but i am the youngest ! being the youngest and i have not much authority to voice out my comments but then as time grew i had more power to give my 2cents worth of thought.

SOOO back to my past months , coming back to malaysia with my not so good results is a very sad factor and yes there weren't good but not too bad either yet i had problems entering uni in malaysia . my 1st choice of Monash had finally offered me a place in their "kind" establishment but with conditions and such extending my study period which i personally hate, my 2nd choice did not reply to me so i guess they are pathetic but my last application did the trick and now i am contemplating to see what exemptions that they would offer because i am reluctant to start the course all over again

during this duration i ended my 1 year relationship with someone that i did eventually love but yet fail hated how the relationship were , i guess i wasn't emotionally attached or i am not ready to be committed for a relationship but things are actually still alright we are friends and she left for new zealand already awhile ago before writing this she commented about the breeze she's enjoying in new zealand and told me not to be jealous .

I certainly had my share of bad moments dealing with friends and their communication issues , perhaps i don't have the required social skills to communicate with my peers anymore or somehow i became an introvert . i face with stress and burden from many aspect and i am certainly facing a quarter life crisis loosing direction of my ultimate goal.For starters i don't have a specific goal that i am aiming for and i certainly need a direction and time and finance not being on my side i have very little options that i could move.I am like a pawn in a chess game i can only take a step pace at one time.For others they were born to soar heights and move as the pleased.

well in the end friendships that matters to me turn out to be the ones that i should avoid yet i feel like i am an fool to think that they ought to be better once things change .. well i couldn't help if they like to take fools for granted :)

epitome of phail

2011-01-05T19:19:00.000-08:00

I KNOW I AM LATE !! I AM APPROXIMATELY 5 days late :D but happy new year to all :D may the 2011 be a pleasant and fruitful year for all my family and friends .

What i am writing today is a flashback memoir of 2010,

back during January 2010 a lot of things happen to me and there were ups and downs , but i am sure it has made me changed to be a better person . back then what i wanted most was to have fun in life because i recon life is too short to be wasted but life ain't simple for me because my life wasn't all bed of roses and yet i get to enjoy a really good summer holiday

feb 2010 was the month i finally got into another relationship till today :D she is just like a beautiful mess by jason mraz perfect but then everyone has their own flaw yet i thank god that i had her :)

march 2010 was a mighty busy month for me as it was a house hunting and house moving but in the end we had our very own little family with our ups and down but it was somehow something that we could look back and laugh about when we grow older

all the way till December we had a lots of events and parties which i truly enjoy enabling me to meet a lot of ppl and in the end of the year i spend my last day of 2010 in hong kong with my best friend :D in the hotel !! both of us was lazy and we decided to sleep in but i recon i was the best way to end 2010 reconciling on the past and enjoy good time chatting the night away :D

you know what :D

2010-11-04T21:31:00.000-07:00

Since i can't actually complain to the head or school or anything i figure i would express my feelings in this blog of mine :D the reason for the post is because i've never hated a subject this much that it actually pains me to think about it , fair enough that they are PhD and masters but does that actually mean they are given the right to have a say in everything and interpret everything as how they think it is ? i never thought i would need to say this but they are stupid . its true they have masters tittle and PhD but then what makes them think other people's opinion do not matter . The fact that i am studying understand explains that i am lack of knowledge and of course for being 21 i would not have 20 years of working experience in a particular work field yes i know you would have worked in a fucking company as the director of the so and so department for x numbers of years , does give you the right the determined every trend there is in the fucking market , have you heard of cultural relativism its from the fucking core subject called ethics if you do not know of it means that moral values are different across culture . maybe in Australia incentives in a form of cash would reduce trust but it is definitely a way to drive people to work . Non sense about what focusing on 20 % of the market and letting go 80% because the trust build would be ruined . The fucking fact that if you are able to be fucking good at what you do builds loyalty and this fucking builds trust :D so for your information offering incentives aren't going to ruin trust because they could be mutually beneficial for the company . Screw me for not having 20 years of working experience , if i would have the 20 years of working experience i would not be paying money to the institution to allow them to employ you to teach me fuck face retarded dumb fuck . use your bloody brain to think about it before even think of commenting on it . AS a matter of fact an incentive can be given in various forms and not just in terms of cash .. so let it be that 1% if we do not offer it in terms of money and change it for a bottle of wine that is worth 800 bucks would it be the same ? GAWD use your fucking brain for god sake .YESSS i am Talking about you , if my marks weren't at stake i would fucking send this to you , u fucking replied to me in CAPSLOCK for your fucking information i am in many ways ur pay master i am a client to RMIT i fucking pay for your salary and you treat me with this fucking level of service , What rights do you have to actually reply me in CAPSLOCKS why when its my groupwork we all have to be access to a way that owhhh i assume it is Eu Vin not doing his work again just fucking because i text in class that does not mean i don't pay attention in class and talk about fucking 3 hours long lecture from you makes me wanna kill myself and yes i can see my name written all over the fucking assignment 2 because of eu vin's poor quality of questions WHY THE FUCK AM I TO BLAME WHEN THEY CAN FUCKING EMAIL YOU THEMSELVES I ALREADY DID MY FUCKING PART AND INFACT I SCORED FUCKING HIGH FOR MY PARTS THANK YOU BITCHHHHHH ,,, period !!! MAYBE YOU'RE RACIST OR PERHAPS my looks disturb you ? do you have some personal grudge against me ? MAYBE YOU OUGHT TO THINK I NEVER TRIED HARD ENOUGH FOR THIS FUCKING SUBJECT but it was me pushing it all along thank you so you think u should fuck yourself ? pretty much yes :D and i hope u fucking burn in hell with all your theories about how smart you are .... we know you have your achievements but then u know FUCK YOU AND and FUCK HIM TOO

if i ever was given a chance to choose again i would not want to see you EVER AGAIN Enough said :S

weeeeeee :D

2010-10-26T14:16:00.000-07:00

Depression !

Depression is the tittle of everything so far somehow :D life has always been a bed of roses for others and i always get myself into trouble :D life is sweet many others think my life is so interesting but i kid u not that no matter how happening and interesting it is . It comes with heaps of prices to be paid and it dues almost every now and then . one of the most extensive price paid is examination depression and stress !! EVERY NOW AND THEN i am faced with exams :D it seems like it is part of my life now :D every decision i made lead me to the current situation i am at :D

Me : Screamsssss i hateeee THISSSSSS

the 2nd price to be paid is in terms of money !!! as you man have this perception of me being loaded !! well i kid you not i face the problem almost every other day !! i can't wait for this year to be over.. everything in this year hasn't exactly been smooth sailing and i just wished it would turn better .

3rd unwanted attention : needless to say :D

okayyy enough said .. there is heapsss of things i am not happy about and this is one of the top in my list !!!! oh wells lets get life going and i want something better :DDD

DEAR GOD

i think i deserve a break , i ain't high achievers and i am certainly not trying to be one but then i think its fair enough that i just want sufficient results :D not much to ask right :D thank youuuu ...

phailllll

2010-09-19T18:05:00.000-07:00

basically everybody failed something in their life before but then some people they think that they are smart enough to not fail in everything they do .. you see 1st attempt fail perhaps because they are dumb 2nd attempt to correct something and yet it failed then you should start listening to others . u would always think that you are prefect in many ways and always held all mighty up high in everything you do but have u ever thought of thy being a failure? i have seen many others who thought of being the intelligent simple common task to show that they are " so smart " throwing the god dam garbage u know how much effort they took to throw the freaking garbage and yet they still fail .. 3 times !! 1st attempt was to just push the fucking garbage bin out .. yet the all mighty dumbass of the century failed u know why ? because they are lazy .. alright 2nd attempt takes garbage to a place far away and dump yeahhh seems like a freaking smart idea. . but yeahh failed !! 3rd attempt same shit with more effort talk as if its the world's deed to them .. but yeahh failed like a fucktard and yeahhh why not just wait for the monday truck to come and just ask if u could throw the garbage in .. thats just the smartest thing to do like EVER? simple task and its done .. how brilliant people are and how dumb can ppl be that is all i want to say ....

bored of life

2010-09-14T06:03:00.001-07:00

ever been bored of life ? ever feel like sometimes the pot of gold awaiting at the end of the other side of the rainbow wasn't worth it ? countless times that good friend called "trouble" stubble on my door step and each visit the burden increase significantly and each time i strive to overcome the obstacle another obstacle emerges. this is what i call life . some people tell me how blessed i am but the actual fact is that they would never know how i feel until they've become me and tried living as me perhaps for an entire year. they would never understand the problems i am going though and never understand how hard it is to just make things go right .how much effort i tried to keep everything as one and try to keep everything intact so many things that i would like to just voice out yet everything seems so hard . this part of me that is been torn inside out and beaten by fate has its ugly bruises.SO MANY PROMISES AND YET SO MUCH DISAPPOINTMENTS .I have no faith in waiting for miracles.I know i was blessed with somewhat a good life but then perhaps i would not be greedy in asking for more because my blessings seems so flawed if you compare it with others and also weighting in the scale it is not worth the effort . if i was meant for greatness i understand the importance of building a characteristic but then what if i wasn't build for greatness why am i putting so much effort into this . are the efforts going to be fruitful or i would just be someone working for someone in the . the future is so gloomy and i have not even one bit of interest in doing all sorts of things that could earn a decent living . maybe earning the average joe salary ain't my thing i just hope life gets better i am just ranting about the disappointments in life

PERHAPS i am not all that great but i don't want to be an average joe :)

this day!!

2010-05-02T23:36:00.000-07:00

this day marks the most miss leading day !! its been about say 38 hours since i last heard from miss lulu low !! she hasn't reply my msgs or answered my calls ... this is the 1st time that i felt loosing her from my sight .. i don't know where is she .. and i could not contact her !! arghhh !!!! gawd !!! how long u wanna keep me in this situation !!! gahhh !!! anyways .. exam's being a bitch thats why i am so stressed out ... stupid timetable ... =.= i have 3 exams on 3 continuous day !!! whats more than that !! anyways !!! thank god the hardest subject would be the earliest one !

sighs

2010-03-10T01:59:00.000-08:00

through out my years of life in everything comes its ups and downs .. and somehow it seems to always get to me that the down time is the hardest thing to pass in my life .. somehow money problems always exist in my life as to others it seems like everything is smooth sailing .. sighs.. i just wonder if sometime i would like to be in other people's shoes ?

welcome 2010

2010-01-05T20:13:00.001-08:00

happy new year to all my readers .. which i think is close to 0 hahaha ... considering a fact that not many have the link to my blog ! hahaha .. anyways !! its 2010 and my year started off great .. having an awesome party at maison !! hahaha ... with nemo and friends. . hahaha then right after the party a small amount of us went to penang .. the bunch that i followed to penang was .. ivy , victor ryan and , jack aka khai rong .. hahah it was a short awesome 3 days 2 night trip and i enjoyed everything about it .. its something that i do not have to worry about anything .. everyone there was cool and we just wanted to have fun !! haha no drama just fun ! so we started our journey after having breakfast .. thats about 12 .. and we reach about 3 and then we checked in and play mahjong until dinner after dinenr i went out with darren and the bunch and we went and yam zha then supper .. the food there was awesome .. hahaha the next day we had breakfast in some jap restaurant and then we went and waste 2 hours of my life for the imaginarium of some doctor =.= it was bad .. hahaha then rushed back to the hotel cuz mervyn will be waiting for us there then head for dinner then it was mois and then after mois we had roti hong kong then we went back to the hotel to sleep and then the next day we left for klang for bak kut teh then it was dota !! its a short brief of what i did for the past week hmm and its new years. right ...

so i have some new years resolution
loose weight !
focus on studies !
plan my future !
get a girl friend!
learn to be a better person!

thats about it i think !! oh well .. i shall try VERY HARD FOR IT hahaha

the point of no return

2009-10-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

i really like the feeling of being me at times and i hated the fact that i am always drawn to reality i love that fact that in the dreams we can be anything we want but when we wake up from the dream everything changes because we once felt that everything was perfect and in reality u would know that how messed up your life is .I have been good or should i say i've never been better .. everything is changing but then i don't know how long does it take for me to live the life i want to live and how much effort i have to put up to do things i want to do . the complicated things that i went through nobody has to ever understand me but it does not hurt to at least think of the other side of the picture .How come when it seems like the richer peoples always have the upper hand towards everything and how come it was the poorer side that always have to give in .hmmm this post is so messy and everything is all over the place but then what i was trying to imply is that your lucky that you have a rich family and thats all oh well i am no one to judge a person for his actions . Then i know i am not somewhat perfect either . assignments are due in about 72 hours and i am going to finish everything tomorrow ! arghhh i hope this time we get to atleast get 20 and i would be so freaking happy but then oh well !! cross fingers.. short random post !

this marks the 101 post in my blog

2009-09-23T12:56:00.000-07:00

what i have come to learn is being nice comes with a price to pay. . a price to pay dearly regarding my back . seriously i hate backstabbers and the more i meet them the more they surprise me .. so my recent encounter with this guy who lives in a state of self denial and dreams about himself being all self centered and being insanely protective and have a serious attitude problem. I never bumped into someone this dreadful . He brags boast and his face is thick as a wall . i have to say i have no idea that he would be such a bitch but then i faced bitchier bitch u man whore .. so throw me with what u can do to me .. throw me with what u got . i am not afraid at all and this is between u and me stabbing my back at the friends where i introduced to you has no use.. ur a lonely bastard u may have ur *u think its so hot girl * on ur side but true enough i think she will get annoyed by ur lame and childish acts one day .on top of that i really wanna know .. how come my friends are sarcastic even when times when i am serious . you make not take me seriously sorry if i raged on you but then logically speaking even if ur intentions were good the words and choices of joke you played was more of a tease that exclaim that i like to fight with ppl alot and i am very happy about this. have you ever thought that by any chance i was being naive and i was being too nice until a day i snap and would be because somebody step on my head and went overboard. think .. sry i may have low patience and i dun tolerate insolence because nonsense makes u stupid and waste my time as well .. so if u probbly thinking of wasting my time .. please make sure its worth while if u tihnk ur going to waste my time just for the fun of it .. be prepared as i will make sure u pay for it dearly ! .. sighs ~ i rant too much .. but then heck this stop belongs to my ranting !

yawnnnnns!

2009-09-18T22:56:00.001-07:00

hello i guess nobody reads the blog anymore heh .. hahahah but anyways i will still update cuz its fun . i've been feeling all gloomy and moody all the time .. since dun know when . Things weren't going very well because i had along in mind and alot to do and time seems to be running out on me so fast ! i could not believe a year is ending soon .. and everybody is getting older as we speak ..In any case what you do with a blog is rant and share .. well i have nothing much to share because things that happen to me was rather pathetic ..hmmm recently i've been sleeping and chilling and spending some time with my friends i've not been shopping but i've been broke for ages ! sighs ~ like seriously speak .. anyways . i feel so stressed up with all this crap because it seems like its all coming towards me .. well i hope that everything will be fine soon .. and if i ever get the things i've wanted . i will really appreciate it ! hahaah .. anyways .. thats that for now !! plus its a rather dull post .. nothing interesting and yet dull !

no sympathy given

2009-08-18T09:47:00.000-07:00

living in this world which is filled with sadness has endless scripts of sadness to offer and has made me wonder in alot of ways that am i doing the right thing or not but i am not to judge i could only just sit and wait till times will tell .. and i know that i've never been a perfect man but atleast i am not far from being close to being called a jerk . countless thoughts placed into real scenario and one by one has come to reality and it has taken me back but then i could not say i did not expect this coming. . but then i would not care that much either.. all i can say is that i've always given special treatments to a certain someone but then apparently it was taken for granted i could not care anymore because i've moved on .. and i am really happy with my future coming prospects and to weight things i think i should have done this ages ago and not linger in my sightless past .I feel so disconnected as in i've got no idea what is all my friend up to and what are they doing and i do miss those day when we can go crazy and spending days doing pointless things counting days awaiting for it to end . i've always been thankful for being who i am .. i am not perfect but then i always try to present the best as i can and i know waiting for things to change would not make a difference but then somehow this would end one day .. and well .. even if the special treatment was somehow striped of i did still give you privileges way beyond others and yet it was enough .. i have nothing to say just that feeling why would i ever spend so much time doing pointless thing .. my new moto using brain thinking logic making sense !

tsk tsk tsk !

2009-07-29T10:27:00.001-07:00

Its been ages since i felt this way but then it is not a bad thing to begin with this is a new start for me . I will going to go lazy this semester i only have 2 days of class per week .. but then its going to be pack but then i think it should be alright .. i like the way because i can put my problems aside and think of work .. i feel like working and plan to try and get some extra cash .. maybe with the extra cash i will go traveling . recently i've been hearing a lot of things .. and these things comes with a price to pay this price gave me the absolute shocking reactions as lies were filled with more lies . I felt bored and because of it made me think a lot and i used to think that i should have been better but then i think i have done my part as always. . but then again it should all be over now i gave up and enough of the pathetic dumb feeling because i think its time i put things to the end and start something new ! anyways ... i love how i am now ... and things are going good as well !

well the very least i have my dignity !

2009-07-20T12:25:00.000-07:00

chapters in life is like this very awesome poem where at the beginning as you read you become drawn into this very space between reality and dreams and as it goes towards the middle u see yourself been torn apart from both reality and imaginations and when it end hits you it the very impact of the end drawing near towards your imagination would shock you and leaving you in despair at the very lease you would try to think that how come there is no more verse in it or there should be a continuation of the poem but then sadly it is never the writers will to end it leaving something to be incomplete but yet it certain situations where an ending is needed to start something again and come up with something far better or by right the best creation of the writer yet . Same goes for life , life is like a story book filled with stories awaiting to be read . IT has many theories and many valuable lessons to absorb by the person and stories are scripted by the very holy god himself to sharpen the people for the future making the world a better place and also make the very person himself better . The task in life were meant to be there for some reason , as an example you fell to the ground when u 1st learn how to walk and u know falling is pain therefore you stop falling and tried to balance yourself while you walk and then when you forget about the pain is when u start falling again .. these are valuable lessons so that you would remember that falling is painful but then some lessons come and go very fast and the would mean nothing to you but the next time it happens again it might be a different story well at the very least hits you in many ways and yet come as the same result . some lessons may cause you something of a value and some just plain pain either of that should be more important to you its your own decision but then again some people always had the favor of god and they may always have everything going as they wanted to but when the they are left alone who are they to blame apart from themselves for relying on god nor other people .. we should always appreciate other god's grace and other people's kindness and not be self centered and only think of your own personal benefits . I can never explain how much of lessons in life i got through to learn this very meaning but then i am sure that a lot of people out there always take people for granted and for them when they wake up i am afraid its too late ... I am very least guilty of having wasted so much time on this lesson .

2009-07-10T12:24:00.000-07:00

this is the part where i should be happy posting about how happy i was when i came back malaysia YES .. it was good while it lasted .. before it was being ruined by peoples .. I don't find the point why u want to hide things from me a simple thing like i don't want to go because bla bla bla i think its really easy if you could tell me and made my life simple . i don't find the reason why you would need to say ur 50 /50 and felt like going and asked me not to tempt you when you don't feel like going u made things worse when you asked ppl to lie for you and u made me look like a complete fool .. and the next bitchy part of it was why in the world would you need to fucking call me out and just tell me we would hang out and yet just left us stranded there . what was your whole idea .. do you think its funny when i came all the way out and then u just expect me to just go home just because u dun want to go .. maybe u should tell me earlier so that we could just go for our own plans .. its time you think of urself.. i felt like a complete dumb ass i dun see ur point thats one of the most pathetic shiit i've gone through .. seriously next time i have thoughts of inviting you .. u made me felt like i am a stupid dumb ass and i shall take the extreme measures to not acknowledge ur existence you can just go missing form my life thats all i can say ..

well i know that another guy was caught victim on my rage but then i am not a fault i think if you think that i am annoying then i shall not pester you thats all i can say . i never did anything beyond persuading but i would think that annoying was a lil extreme when you mean it .. i would accept applogies and also listen to what you have to say . because i know my mood was not good but i am not totally wrong . sighs what a shitty day !

there is a time when everybody become down.

2009-07-05T18:14:00.000-07:00

i always find that when weak people finds the strong for courage and how does the strong ones seek for courage . Everybody in this world has its own weaknesses some fear the sense of being bullied some fear the sense of being lonely and some pathetic ones fear the sense of boredom . and yet i am the very few ones who fear boredom and loneliness and apart from that i have also many other fears as well . I fear the part of my life that is now everything is hanging by a thread and i know nothing of its progression this accounting assignment has been bothering me for a very long time and it had made me loose my mood for the holidays and been down and sulk at home . i seriously would make drastic decisions just because i fail i might consider not studying its not like i failed but then due to my friend's carelessness has made this situation become shiity .. if not iwould not need to care about entering degree at all .. all the endless efforts that i put in to work things out would just vanish in just an blink of eye . I find that i am always hanging by a thread at some point of my life ... not to mention that others find me like a perfectionist i don't intend to be one .. but i dun intend to be a failure .. and failing means i really disgrace my parents i really hate this feeling in me now that makes me wanna strangle the duo and the lecturer and the coordinator as well .. for keeping things hanging in a thread .well apparently results would be release soon and i hope it does not break my hopes .. i would not like to stay in tafe for another sem wasting precious time doing nothing but that shiit subject i am serious !

this is the end of our very 1st year

2009-06-27T11:53:00.001-07:00

there is always a time where things come to end and everything will certainly come to an end in a way you could not stop it . no matter how hard you try to keep it everybody come to a stage where we move on. All of us move along in our own very life , and when times like this are the hardest thing in life where you have to be separated from your friends .. heh .. its a sad but yet its for the very best .. in years to come i will remember the whole year we spend here in Melbourne its one of the very best thing that was bestow onto my on top of my other blessing .. this year has made me grow wiser and shaped me into facing more of the world .As we all know in this world people come in all shape and size , but we should never judge a person by their appearance because you may miss out the most valuable characteristic of the person . For those of you who read often , you ought to know what course i am doing and if everything goes well .. i should be proceeding to year 2 next semester , nothing to be strange of . and this is the time where i have to bid farewell to all those whom are dear to me . all of us went through loads in this one year .. we made it through together and it really means a lot to me .this year has shown me a lot of things. something that may seem so normal maybe a hard thing to achieve for others and you should never be ashamed with your short coming as they are compensated with other blessing and you should always be treasure them . Most of my classmates are from china and it wonders me to see how they strive to learn english like me learning how to read chinese . well i've improved a lot and apart from that i also manage to learn how to look into things in the other point of view to get the whole picture . Well i may have been good towards you or not that is only left to be judge by the person and i would not care if you want to judge me for the person i am . i stand on both my feet and tell you straight that i don't judge but i am not perfect so do not make me start judging when i start it means you've really got attitude problem . well not to mention names but i don't like the idea of people treating you like slave and on top of that when i tried to avoid possible conflicts you tried to make thing worse . i should not be blame for being me and i am also not to be blame for things that was your short coming . i know as people of the rich u are spoiled to the bone but sometimes you have to know not everybody thinks of you of that especially when i know you for such short time . It was already very nice of me to give face to you . well i do not wish to rant further but what is the use of threatening me when doing it would make things worse u could not confirm with me earlier and you think that i would give in . If you wish to threaten me think of what your trying to use against me . If i am doing this i am doing it out of a favor not that i am employed or owing you money .. on the other hand , coming from a rich family u should reconsider your the way you spend your money . I may not wear branded stuff but i am living a good life . WHAT IS THE POINT OF WEARING BRANDED STUFF WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN AFFORD SOMETHING CHEAP . i am really amuse by people of such when you play , play properly when you do things made them clear , when you help people you should not think of getting the same repayment . i am not the kind of person that would give in to such pathetic shits . think of how much your worth b4 talking terms with me . atleast if you go on persuading me i would give in but choosing to threaten me was a very wrong choice if we are not fated to be friends that would be alright i had enough anyways.

well thats for rubbish ranting that i could not care less .
now for the most disturbing shit in my mind would be of the fucking swine flu .i wish to strangle all the pigs alive for causing this shiit .. and the worse part of it its making me waste time in melbourne . How come MAS is so shitty . budget airlines cost 38 to change while mas cost a grand slamming 750 aud i mean seriously whats the point if i am paying for shitty service . it came to a point where i am seriously planning to take airasia next time i go back ..i am seriously proposing a boycott for MAS if they are planning to rip customers off .. i bought the ticket for 1k aud its 650 aud for the ticket and the remanings are the credit card charges and also the air port tax and wanting to change the air ticket means i am paying for a new ticket AND ALSO A FUCKING ADMIN FEES . WHY WOULD I DO SO ? THATS THE DUMMIEST SHIIT I EVER HEARD AND THE POINT THAT THEY HAD THE MADE THE ANNOUNCEMENT THAT CHANGING TICKETS WOULD BE POSSIBLE BUT WHEN I 1ST BOUGHT THE TICKET MELBOURNE WAS NOT INFECTED WITH SWINE FLU AND SO WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ? I WAS STRUCK DUMBFOUNDED

OH WELL.. something happy i have some cash to spend .. i think.. and i have the whole apartment to myself after tomorrow .. that might be a sad sad thing but then i think i would survive .. i stocked up and loads of junk food and also series i plan to become a potato couch how lifeless am i .. i always find that my life aren't as interesting as what others lived but in terms of adventures . i never traveled outside of klang valley on my own with my friends on car -.- i've been to genting .. my hopes are burst when it comes do doing things related to car . i dun have a car of my own and to other people it may sound so awesome and all i wonder who can i fetch .. maybe i should find myself a girlfriend and then settle be on our own way to some little fun and relaxation i could use some of that .. well this is certainly a very long post because i am free now ..thx for reading .. and if you have any questions u can ask me directly and please do not make assumptions of who may the person i am describing because you would be wrong ..

brokeness

2009-06-06T21:57:00.000-07:00

well i have been spending alot recently . suddenly i have the urge to spend money and i felt very bad because i am spending alot of money at one shot .. its almost like i am printing money my recent purchase includes 3 polo tees from RPL a new wallet from gucci and a lacoste bag those are just the very few to begin with on top of that i bought a pair of shoe ..and a RPL windbreaker .. and also perfumes... like 2 bottles of them ..sighs but then they are mostly on sale .. well as for my gucci wallet i am actually liking it but then it has a high price to pay.. i dun know why when i use it .. i spend money even more !! hahah .. well as for image.. here is the new wallet :)

i've been thinking alot lately .. it seems like i am a very complicated person .. haha.. well for starters i have issues against myself .. i can't find the reason to study ! whenever i open the book i have problem keeping my eyes open and this is hunting me for ages .. well .. other then that.. i always think that i would like to be free and away from relationships but then i've never really think about it :) and i have alot of friends that are going in and out of it and some bad and some good ones. . i've recently meet up with a friend of mine that i totally lost contact with .. we actually meet once only and it was about last year i called him up to ask him to come meet me but yet that bitch only came and meet me this year XD hahha .. well he does not read my blog so yeah .. his actually in a very bad state judging that he came to me :) ppl who come to me wants to become another person i don't know why ! hahah it seems like when they want a new life they come to me and i change them ? how about me ? who do i go to ! hahah..well i recently moved to a new apartment its awesome .. and well just for starters it has its own foosball table and a 360 .. and i can play wee.. hahah i sound like a small kid.. so back to the person i was talking about .. he spend 4 years with a girl and did so much for the girl but in the end the girl's reply was just wanting to be friends well .. for starters its not like i want to say anything at all at the moment cuz i am in no state to judge the girl but overview of the girl was not really attractive and with my friend's overview i think he deserve better .. but my friend claims that he sees future with that girl .. thats what he calls love blindness it seems .. hah .. so at the moment i don't know whats the best for him but just let him be .. well i always knew that i am not a good guy .. not the very best choice for a boyfriend .. that would be one of the reasons i am still single now .. not that i have any comments about it . and it seems like my friend has alot to say about me but then i admit there is the very stage in life where u just feel like settling down and get serious with everything you're doing and maybe if in the rear future that time comes i would welcome it with open arms .. somehow i always ends up having mix feelings i wonder was it always me or am i just being ignorant . am i always sensitive or was my feeling right .. well time will tell .. as for now .. maybe just let it be .!

the fairy tale i seek for !

2009-05-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

recently i've been thinking alot and most of the time i think about being in a life where everything goes as i plan .. well my plans aren't as far from reality for the moment .. i've made everything that i wanted possible .. but then again .. its never harmful to dream .. so my perfect fairy tale.. LOL this sounds like a very wrong post .. well i've ran of of topics .. other then being busy for the next few weeks due to assignments. . so might as well do some typing now .. i know my blog is dead ..i know the only person who reads my blog are those who know me personally and has the intention to know me more in a way understanding my thoughts .. well for starters the live i've always dream about was being able to get through all my exams and get into aussie and get through my uni and go back and work so far i am on the right track .. well from that i intend to move to work .. then when i work i make sure i give my very best until the day i retire alots of ppl know what age i want to retire .. lol ...i am lazy i know but then well yeah ...and then when i retire i would just do all the things i like without following any particular order .. well i have tons of things i wan to do .. so .. thats parts and parcel about my life ..then next part .. the girl of my dream .. i've always dream to date a girl who has her own unique personality i do have high demands .. but then the girl must be presentable and well care for me .. hahahah ... i do believe that i would like the girl to do the 10 percent while i do the 90 percent of the love i sounds very wrong what i am trying to mean here was to let the girl make the 1st move and i will continue from that part onwards .. hahah well maybe its hard .. but i will wait no worries i've got time .. and then live life being happy .. but oh well lives are full of wonders i would give it the benefits of doubt for now .. but then god has made my life in a way that i am happy .. thx you god :) hahaha

sighs`

2009-04-21T20:06:00.000-07:00

okay... there was alot of unexpected events which happen recently but then again .. things would be better as time go .. i do belief that you can live life as how you choose it to be .. hahha ... i series of questions that ponder on my doorstep making me wonder how i should be like and who should i be someday .. it does not mean anything much if i would just lay around and be lazy . the world would move and i would still be there same .. i should move my lazy and start working on a future plan for my future .. i am trying to change to be a better person .. i always think that the person you are now and the person you see 10 years back and 10 years from now would always be different some change for the very best and some would become the very worse but i am trying to be better .. i know i've not been nice at most times .. i am not being kind nor being a good friend to some of you .. i know only a few ppl has the link and reads my blog .. hah which is a good thing .. hahah .. so i would try and change to be better to be more caring to be less mean and the most crucial change is to be more patience .. i am impatience and so i hope that there is alot i am in need to change .. give me time :) hahhaha ... anyway these are just random thoughts because i am being random in class LOL !! dam tired.. and sleepy and bored.. with class !!

so whats on now?

2009-04-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

so this is where i come to everything has change for some better for some worse .. for starters its going to be a sad day for my family as my grandmother just passed away recently . may you rest in peace .. although we never agree on anything .. but then i just hope that you moved on and life a great life .. 2nd on my list was i was suppose to fly back for a short trip for my grandmother's funeral .. but then well lets just put it in short words .. not worth it .. and then there is this part of me that went crazy and fork out 800 bucks on shopping .. which resulted in an major wallet hole burning .. well then its all worth it .. anyways back to updates apart from that my friend came over to visit me .. well it was alright .. we did have our share of fun .. although we used to have our own problems .. but then this time round it was alright .. atleast he wasn't prone to insults as he used to be .. but then he still looses his temper on and off .. hah ... but then well his a simple person with a simple belief he has his own visions and his somewhat to say innocent .. for his age .. but then overall he is a nice guy .. hah .. i still remember the good old days where i was a noob and i need transport to get around .. he was always offering a helping hand .. hah ... i know his not that popular among ppl because of his actions and they way he act at times .. but then who are we to judge .. we are not perfect therefore we should understand each other's flaws and accept them for who are they .. as i said recently i am trying to change to be a better person .. i dun intend to be what i used to be and i dun intend to be mean at times .. i would try to understand ppl more and try to look at the bigger picture .. understand the story from the other person's point of view .. at the very least i should stop holding grudges or make any judgement base on a single event .. and a person shall always not assume and also be humble .. regardless of how powerful , rich , and influential you are .. and lastly i think living the life fully should be what is important be who you are and not who you intend to be . life fucks ppl up every moment of your life .. u will be faced with problems and these are the opportunity to shine .. therefore live life to not complain but to live as if the next dawn would not come .

i still think

2009-04-03T06:23:00.000-07:00

life has been really freaking hard now days.. there is too much going on and too much to think about.. i have been really thinking hard about some decisions to make in life .. seriously the stress has been building up .. sorry for neglecting my blog .. actually i dun really care .. nobody ever reads it anyways .. hahah i know i got a few loyal readers only .. hah .. so many different thoughts were going through my head .. and well everybody has its own path .. and i an finding it hard to figure my own path ..feel like going back for a holiday !

reaveled

2009-02-14T06:12:00.000-08:00

here i am again lost of sight of my vision and also trying to find my way to a place where i feel comfortable .. sighs ~ seriously .. i feel all the tension building up .. here in Melbourne .. the heat was alright .. i am not effected somehow .. when i landed .. it was COLD ... i tot it was supposed to be hot .. i came back with shorts and a t shirt.. was a bad choice .. apparently the day i landed the heat was about 17C hmmm oh well .. seriously i almost caught a cold .. but then made it through .. the funny thing was .. the moment i reach my apartment .. the only thing i look forward to is sleep .. the night b4 that i was chilling out with the bunch at TGIF and also some irish pub which is cool .. hahahaa.. pictures are all over facebook .. hahaha.. well .. then the ride of 7.30 was not a very good one .. the family i was sitting beside was this abit disturbing .. they are muslims and this lady's baby apparently i would not call her baby more like a toddle was such a pain .. she screams every 5 secs because her food was not serve .. and the is not small size but insist on sleeping on the mom giving me a hard time .. well .. and her mum's breath was not that pleasant at all .. sighs ~ . the moment we landed we were not given permission to disembark because the plane has not found a dock to dock and the planning was that bad we waited for almost 40 mins .. being paranoid i waited and was among the few to rush out .. then it was immigration it was bad enough that the que was long and it was shitty .. oh well .. then later on .. the que for custom clearance was hell again .. seriously my mood aint good and it was turning bad. . but then i meet this nice taxi driver which gave me discount .. and oh well when i reach the apartment it was hell .. it looked like it was struck by whirlwind .. oh well .. after setting up my bed i went straight into bed.. it took me approximately 4 days to clean up my room .. sighs ~~ its still a messed now .. hahaha

alright !!

2009-02-10T04:43:00.000-08:00

alright .. life goes on .. hahaha .. i am reall sorry for those ppl i did not meet up back when i was in malaysia.. hahaha... anyways...its about time i update u guys on how i have been doing ? hahaha. . i've been trying to push myself to clean my room ... but then .. yes i finally did it .. . i am done .. not everything but left dishes and also laundry !! hahahah ... so .. yeah .. this is a short post .. now days things aren't the same like the way last time .. but then i hope its for the very best ... heh ...

how i felt ...

2009-02-01T10:47:00.000-08:00

how i feel might not be important in other people's eyes .. maybe some took my too lightly and some took me granted . well its not that i like to play the angry card often but then there are reasons why i would do it sometimes.. if u were able to make me angry means that i would still care for you .. that would mean that u still my attention in the eyes .. when it comes to a limit where i would totally ignore you .. that is when u would need to start worrying .. the reason that a person would get angry might have many different aspect .. some which were for the good of the person and some might be the bad of the person .. for instance if a person cared for u .. and u did something wrong .. that person is angry about ur actions that would be for the good being of u .. if a person on the other hand envy you .. that would be for the very wrong reasons .. to be angry.. i know u read my blog often ... if u do let me clearly explain to u why the fact that i am angry ... there would be no reason for me to get angry if i would not care more about u .. but then somehow ur actions made me pissed and on top of that u tried to irritaited me even more .. i choose not to speak to u for many reasons .. one for the fact that i dun wan it to ruined my mood .. i know once i speak to u on the phone i would be freaking pissed and i would start sounding you in result it would be a bad day for all of us .. the 2nd reason is to let u think on behalf of ur actions on ur own for many reasons of why were ur actions like that and why u got ppl pissed at you .. to be honest with you .. i did not like the fact that u did not know how to take care of yourself and also u did not know how to control yourself moreover the fact that your bossy at times makes me feel like why am i doing this.. my patience has its limit and well .. u totally blew it the other day .. for the fact that u made me wait .. for god knows how long i was not pissed but my mood began having its turn with the headache constantly striking it was not easy to bare with .. 3rd .. if u wan to eat just don't have to go on a diet and end up killing yourself in the rear future .. i dun even know why u need to manage ur weight at freaking 40kg or less .. does it give u a sense of achievement .. do u know that it burdens me sometimes when other ppl don't give in ? you don't get to eat what u wan always but atleast eat something .. just think about it .. u said that u weren't hungry infront of my friends in but the fact that u were straving to death because the food was not your type of food .. well not everybody can afford to eat like you and certainly not everybody likes to eat what u eat from time to time .. 4th u know that the fact that u were hungry and u did not eat much b4 going into club .. and yet u still insist on drinking without thinking .. what happen to your brains .. was it out of order ? do u know how pissed i was when i saw u drunk ? do u you think anybody would ask u out to clubs if u could not control yourself .. you would be a burden to ppl.. and not everybody will treat you like we did .. and certainly not everybody is as nice as us .. you might end up getting caught in some rape case if your not careful enough.5th why were u being such a desperate slut out there..i know using these words is really bad but why were u trying to get other ppl's number out there .. its a guys task to get ur number and not u giving out ur number to some random strangers in the club .were you that desperate to get laid or something ? well would not like my opinion at this stage but what i've said is what i thought of when ur doing this.. even me as guys i dun randomly give other ppl my number godknows what will happen .6th the fact that ur sturborn makes everything so complicated .. you would never listen and u would always think your right .. can u open ur dam bloody eyes and ears and listen to what ppl have to say .. some ppl just give face to you and not fight with u .. and let me make one thing clear .. do u even know why i was angry .. if u did not then now u know .. i do not get angry over petty things.. but u were at the point where i wanted to raise my hand up against ur face and slap u .. i was not the only one .. i can assure you .. well ..its up to you to think how bad was the other night .. it was not bad because we were there.. imagine if u were out with someone who has a bad name .. say a desperate guy .. god knows what will happen .. therefore this is not something i came up to just bitch about..its something to tell u what were ur mistakes ..u can take it with an open mind or u can shut it off .. as u like .. if u think that u truly understand ur mistakes then u should only text me and let me know that .. if u would not agree with me .. then u can leave it as it is .. cuz i feel that i would not truly forgive u unless you knew ur mistakes and promise not to repeat them .. this is not my 1st time doing this and u should know that i am a man of my words .. and lastly ur not the only person who was sounded by me about this even jeremy got his sounding and also loads of ppl last time including ivy .. and ian ..

dots...

2009-01-12T02:29:00.000-08:00

yawn !!! life gets harder ,yet thing life moves on , simple things are complicated and yet we have to deal with it . have you guys ever thought of being single a good choice ?at times single has the lonely word attached to it .. but yet being attached seems so lovely and cute yet painful and stressful .. ...this question sounds like the very famous quote " TO BE OR NOT TO BE " to be in a relationship or not to be in a relationship that is the question .. personal opinion .. single free and easy .. has no limits to what u can do and what u want to do .. but then there is also limits towards the other party .. then again .. in relationship .. open relationship often ends up hurting someone .. attached means that there would be boundaries , there would be someone u would afraid to hurt and sometimes things can get very complicated .. thus .. comes back to the question are you ready or are u just looking for someone to fill in your emptiness .. if so .. was the person that u were attracted because of her looks ...then if so .. how long would u affection last .. if its all because of look .. fame .. then there would be a certain someday that somehow u may end up in a broken relationship because these certain someone is no longer hot and now became someone whom you are bored with ..then you would move on ..and if the relationship goes further on .. you may have kids. . and what would happen to your kids.. they end up being sad because their family was torn apart because of affection towards your partner's looks .. there for they would end having bad thoughts about family.. such as the people in the 4 Christmas . then look at it this way .. if u know it would not last.. why waste your time .. waste other people's time ... but then again ...these mistakes always happen during times when u were young and bold .. and u were spoil and not being given the appropriate attention .. hence u would become a lack of attention person seeking for a partner just to fill in your loneliness without knowing the fact that you were hurting someone else..have you ever thought because of your actions you might ruined a person's life..well some people just does not grow up collecting girlfriends like collecting medals :) ... grow up please

i wonder...

2008-12-18T19:45:00.000-08:00

hello .. everybody ... welcome to my deadly blog again xD if ur reading this its either u check often or ... maybe ur just bored.. anyways .. this blog has not much of meaning its just some place for me to kill time .. occasionally update peeps about how i am doing and how things are...ok.. now let me set things straight .. i have been thinking a lot since the time when i was leaving to australia to continue my studies and over the time then now .. i saw this situation of my coming at a very fast pace.. its something which i choose to not bother and now its coming back again to me .. everybody makes decisions .. everybody thinks that their decisions are right .. but then .. .how right can it be can only be judge by the person making the decision .. ever tried making a decision and regretting it for the rest of ur life .. or ever made a decision where everybody felt that u were making the wrong move but yet u felt that somehow its all good and its all in ur calculations .. well i am having this thought now .. would my decision be a good one ... would it somehow effect my future .. will i stand out. .. because to me ..i think some ppl were meant for greatness someppl were meant for normal achievements.. someppl became somebody because of luck and some became somebody because they are indeed somebody .. given the option i was lucky my family was not to say bad .. in fact i consider myself lucky to be given a chance to live as who i am now ... enjoying whatever i got so far..but i know all these will be a bed of roses as many facts are not set up right yet.. considering the fact that i have some financial problems which i do not wish to share with .. has left me with insecure feeling .. as many of u guys know i am currently doing my degree in australia .. yes its all good .. and i somehow love it there..but reality had hit me way b4 i left ..and this decision was up on my mind for quite some time .. i mean i am not as lucky as most of my friends whose parents are young or capable enough for their kids to enjoy their years as kids and young adults i have to take up responsibility..so far as i dun wan to waste time continuing my degree .. some ppl may think that this act is bold and not wise .. but how far can u actually go with a degree .. and how long can my dad support me .. that is my question... hmmmm well .. too me i think its a gamble ..i know education is very important .. but then business dealings are not something which can be taught to you ... things u learn in book are no longer at use in the real life ..the cert can assure u a work .. a work slightly higher paid then those without a degree .. leaders of our fathers time were not educated to such extend yet they were many great achievers in their time ..to me i am not sure how far can education bring us to ... but as u can c .. those facts that u learn from lecturers are not something that can be used but more towards theory based .. business is not fortune telling its not something that everybody can obtain .. but then seriously if the lecturer can earn as much more then what business man are doing now .. why in the world would they not earn and rather sit in the class and teach and mark papers.. its not like the pay is much higher ... well .. i dun know about other ppl's opinion but i truly belief that .. somethings are just meant to .. education is actually good but the situations does not allow it .. sighs~~~

this incident

2008-12-14T19:01:00.000-08:00

i know my blog has always been dead .. but then i dun have the intention to revive it .. hahaha plus i am busy all the time .. i dun get enough sleep .. i have too many things to do and too many ppl to meet.. lately alot of things has been going on my mind ... i know it sounds weird when i am enjoying my life here. . but i would like to say thank you god. . for everything .. i mean my life has never been much of a roller coaster ... it has its ups and downs but more like a slow one .. considering the fact that i am lucky to have a complete family .. true enough every family has their own problems and the grass always looks greener on the other side .. but i am proud to have been in this family all of us has been hot headed at times and paranoid by each other's actions .. but overall we would try to give in at least ... sometimes we might stand firm on our own beliefs but as a family we should always give and take .. hahaha ... that does not happen always anyways .. not in my family . hahahha .. i have been thinking alot lately about my future ... i know i am always aiming for the future goal of mine which is to retire early but what are the possible options to achieve that goal of mine .. some people have their mindset to go far .. some has the potential and some are just meant for normal .... i do not wished to be normal i wan to go beyond normal ... well ... its just something i have to work hard for ... get everything right and set my mind straight .. i could not allow distraction to blind my route ... anyways.. .i just wanna say life goes on ..and we should always think for the future and not at the past .. memories are just memories that were meant to give us a sense of belief that we achieve something or remind us mistakes that we went through and prevent us from making it happen again .. hahahah

it was all good ...

2008-12-13T10:22:00.001-08:00

hmmm .. life has been really kind to me .. i felt that i have been pampered by my parents alot .. hahaha..no joke .. serious .. apart from that .. without touching the clubs .. my life is already on high social life point already .. hahahah .. regardless of when i still ditch ppl alot .. and i recently ditch my lou poh also .. and she is angry with me .. apart from that.. my mistress is also pissed at one point la .. haizh .. well .. sometimes we just ditch on and other la.. not that i would like to but somehow time does not allow me .. 24 hours a day is not enough sometimes. . esp when ppl like to have the courtesy of not informing me in advance and also in some cases drag and do everything slowly .. i get impatience all the time .. that would be one of my greatest downfall .. as i have many other falls ..but then its the fact that nobody is perfect and nobody can please everybody ...life goes on and its just it .. so for to start of my trip back to malaysia is considered as a holiday already .. cuz i am now currently station in overseas for studies well that is melbourne .. but the fact that in melbourne itself i am also traveling around double bonus .. when i came back on the 15th.. i was planning to settle down for awhile but then things went a lil out of hand as calls were made and i felt obligated to accompany my friend cuz he was lonely and all to sg .. so i went to sg on the 25th of nov .. hmmm i was suppose to stay in sg till the 2nd of dec but instead i could not take it there.. i have been walking alot in melbourne on top of that the weather in sg is killing me .. the heat is beyond reasonable .. to walk there is like exposing an ice cream to the heat .. i sweat like there is no end ..and there was no internet connection and we're bored.. i left 4 days earlier then what was planned.. but my friend stayed back .. in sg i meet up with loads of friends such as seeth , nash and nigel .. hahah they are fun peeps.. and meet alot of new peeps along with a friend which i meet in viwawa and we actually meet up .. how lame is that ? hahaha.. well nice to know you freddy .. ahaha .. thx for bringing me around .. hahahaha...well after coming back i would expect to enjoy but i have been going out endlessly .. hmmm .. went out to catch movies and yam zha .. hahah ... all these activities consume alot of money on top of that i bought a new phone and spend alot on shopping which leaves me broke.. i have to purchase a psp and save up so that i can spend in london and also macau . hahha .i will update about plans of that trip and what are the downfall of the trips hahahah

lifes go on...

2008-12-01T17:58:00.000-08:00

life goes on even if your going through the worse time of your life .. but then for me currently things are not that bad as far as i know .. well for starters my academic results were sort kinda like good and some it was all worth it ..well i was expecting a 2 D and 2 C or something but heck i got 3 D well i have to thank my lecturer for that . Most of my lecturer had been a great help .. esp vivien and andrew altou their subjects were one of my least favourite but heck they are one awesome lecturer .hahaha . apart from being happy i am also a little worried about how will things be next sem .. eventou it might sound really cool to go back to aussie but i am affraid that next sem would be tougher on my friends as some of the subjects would be mind fucking exprience for them .. hahah well besides that the economy crisis is also giving its 2 fucks on everyone . Therefore money is not that smooth .. hahah. i was thinking of getting a 32 inch LCD hmmm .. should i or should i not.. but the thing is i am not around all the time .. hahaha.. apart from that i wanna buy ALOT ALOT more things. . sighs ..i am going to die soon .. as i said i am running low on cash and now still thinking about spending . I WANNA GO SHOPPING TOO ..sighs .. how nice if i have unlimited credit ??

skies are so clear ..

2008-11-13T05:49:00.000-08:00

alright .. for starts i might be delighted and might be not .. for some reasons my grades went for a shock from heaven to hell .. and now i am stuck in between d or c so .. i am stuck in a dilemma .. haizh .. if i manage to get 4 d i would consider persuading my dad to finance my trips to a place i wanna go .. maybe somewhere cheap .. hahaha .. alright its about 2 days left in Melbourne .. and i find that i like this place alot ..and my friends here are awesome .. seriously without a doubt they would be the most easy going friends around .. hahahhaa.. i mean we go around as a group hangout play chill and joke like mad.. and well they came up with loads of Chinese terms on me .. one of them is win and win .. and another one is gan newbie .. hahaha. i dun know what is that suppose to mean but heck its nothing good .. well . i know this sounds wrong .. but i think i am becoming those nerd kick ass good boy here. hahah ..i did not touch club for 2 months already and still going strong and did not flirt around too .. wahahhaa.. i dun know according to nigel i flirt all the time . but here i think i just chill and lay back .. maybe there are reasons which i choose not to disclose. . anyways these 6 months are seriously awesome .. but i am having doubts will all my friend come back next sem.. haha it would not be fun without them here.. i mean we grow to be so found of each other and .. now they seem to have this idea of not returning if their grades do not turn out well .. seriously i wish i could help them more .. hahaha .. altou i did as much as i could and even my lecturer said i almost went close to being caught for plagiarism but the fact is i did not do much but just translate their words into what is right .. well i seriously think that english is important now and i thank god for being someone who is able to speak efficient english and able to read without troubles , but apart from my grammar errors that one needs working ... i gave back all my grammar knowledge to my teachers .. hahaha sadly to say .. i was never good at writing essay with pen and paper. . i wish they could allow comps or typewriter to be used in the exams.. that would be so much more better. . i mean seriously sometimes ppls hand writing could be such a pain for ppl why not just allow students to use type writer and its also much faster .. hahaha oh well .. maybe it years to come they might do something like this.. hahahaa

this is what i call life..

2008-11-09T06:41:00.000-08:00

This is coming from yours truly . recently i have been thinking about my life a lot and other peoples life too ..i am really glad to be me .. sometimes. . i know my blog has been a ranting spot or also sometimes a place where i express my personal feelings. . hahaha its a bit draggy and might be boring for some one who is looking for humor or anything .. i can be a very dull person and i can be the other way around..somehow i think i am blessed in many ways apart from all the bad luck i have been bumping into nothing is life threatening .. so i am really thankful of this .. apart from that .. i notice how important is English in this world and especially when your in a western country , i was somehow shocked when somebody actually asked me do i speak English seriously , this vietnamese lady actually asked me whether i can speak english or not i would wan to shoot straight at her face what language i am speaking now .. she was a banker and how could a big bank such as commonwealth be so ignorant hiring such a rude banker .. seriously me and my friend was actually insulted but alright its just those things when we looked back and laugh about it . well .. recently i had another bad luck thing . i actually lost my wallet consisting of my everything but thanks to this incident i was blessed with another lesson of life .. money can buy alot of things but money can't buy everything . when i lost my everything i still had my friends .. all of them was willing to lend me money and not only that offer to buy me dinner ..i was seriously touched.. i mean most of my friends would too but these people i actually know them not so long but we have been hanging out everyday it seems like we are so close now .. this is a very good thing and one of them actually have my webby .. and she does read my blog from time to time ..well i dun really like melbourne actually somehow i hate somethings about it .. no doubt about it . but then there are alot of things which i like about it too .. and weather is not one of the things. . i think i still prefer malaysia's humid whether .. atleast u would know that tomorrow would still be a freaking hot day and the day after that and not being played by the weather .. seriously its freaking 4 seasons here.. in the morning the temperature can go as low as 4-6 degress and in the afternoon it can go up and down as it wish then go back down to cold .. i mean like what the fuck !! seriously its that bad .. u come out with the idea that its cold u will be steamed to death .. and if u come out without a jacket then u would be in deep shiit.. because of the weather i lost my wallet cuz it made me sick ..oh well .. thats one of the bad things about melbourne .. i think what i like most is the friends i have here.. i mean they are very nice people and very friendly and not to mention very straight forward .. they are just pure and not hiding any intentions behind their backs .. maybe its because most of them come from very good background .i dun have to put up faces i dun have to play tricks i dun have to make moves and all. its all fun and laughter . we could tell each other about everything and if we are not happy about a person or their attitude we confront that person . back in malaysia i rather not bother much because i know i would be either wasting my time or either its not worth it .. hahah .. i felt so happy when i found out that my decisions were all the while right for not trusting the person .. well its just my own feeling and now alot of ppl agree with me .. as far as i know i never like to play tricks but when a person made me do it seriously is asking for it .. i was not hurt not feel any guilt when i turn his apology down i just felt that he was not the right person who deserve my forgiveness ..hhahah.. its something rare .. hahah .. well most ppl who knows me well enough knows that i am a person who keeps track about ppls actions and put into account. Nigel can tell u all about it .. hahaha.. but the reason is not to hold any grudges its to evaluate my friends because i know some friends are meant to come into your life and leave as they wish .. and some are meant to stay . I know most of my friends here in melbourne are not meant to stay as most of them will go back and live their own life sooner or later but seriously i hope they do well in their exams so that they could come back for the next sem and we can enjoy all over again .. and this time i would try my very best to help you guys i may be selfish when i felt that its not worth it but the time spent with u guys are worth it .. even if it meant giving up my social life in malaysia and come here and study its worth it cuz u guys somehow made my 6 months here fun ..hahahha ...i think nobody will read until here i tihnk its too much of personal reflection hahaha..

hmmm

2008-11-05T21:55:00.000-08:00

fuck ... today would just be my worse day of my life .. seriously .. i lost my Burberry wallet along with 400 Australian dollar in my wallet there goes my mood for shopping afer exams ..seriously i don't know why things like this always happen to me .. like i always loose stuff from time to time .. like my bag and now my wallet .. sighs. .its always when its expensive then things start to go missing sighs. . i really hate this ...sighs~~~ i wish my life is not that complicated .. hahaha.. how nice i could be someone who cared less about everything .. and just dun give no fucks in life..dammnn.....

totally random

2008-10-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

The reason i blog was because to blog and reply to my misstress !! FOR YOUR INFO i am not giving u an excuses .. and i am no bitch player too :P darling i like u alot la .. hahhhaha happy ma darling .. sry la now days we rarely talk but its alright right ? i we'll be meeting each other very soon and have our own sweet time .. or crazy life .. cuz it seems likes we never had time to be normal but rushing here and there its either for curfew or to go somewhere for some events. hahahaha..well then again .. i am really sry la .. been neglecting u .. hahahaha .. i know u dun mind !! hahahaha...hahahah anyway i will go do some shopping soon .. hahahaha.. and that was the message i wanted to pass to her .. hahaha neeways i dun think anybody would understand much .. hahaha well let me update u a lil more on my life here.. basically I AM PISSED NOW .. and no joke i mean .. seriously i rarely get pissed well this bloody bitch .. has no bloody god dam right in anyway anyhow anywhat to show me faces .. i was being nice .. and from now onwards i will make sure i won't be nice to a certain someone.. i can be nice to ppl and i can be very mean to ppl ..i dun know why she thinks she is the bitchy bitch ... and i hate those kinda people .. she is fucking lazy and when ppl ask for her for help she dare to refuse and actual fact was the mess was partially because of her .. for some fuck reason i dun find the reason why she was given the right to refuse . and apart from that she is a fucking fucking fucking lazy bitch .. who sleeps and eat .. i am bloody pissed about this darn shiit .. she can cry she can make noise and she can whack ppl .. and when u wan serious work to be done .. all i get is nothing .. she only complain like shiit .. well i shall continue later on when i have time ...

my everything...

2008-10-18T06:50:00.000-07:00

i wanna welcome everybody back to this beloved dead blog .. hahahah ... the reason why i decided to post again because i thought that its about time for me to update it .. hahaha .. well .. just came back from johnson's place and had a blast there.. did whacko shiits there.. i actually kinda like the life here .. obviously u lose some but u gain some too .. well i think the balance is on par or actually i gain more..well for starters its 1 more month before i go back to malaysia and work again for sometime .. i actually learnt new things and also experience alot of things here.. i learn how to take care of myself. . besides earning my own money wise.. atleast i manage to manage some of my expenses but.. my expenses here are high as hell..besides that i have develop a new addiction of shopping maybe it is no new news to alot of people esp my mistress.. hahaha .. ur darling me has been spending like Tons here.. hahaha .. i bought like 10 jackets here and also like 3 pairs of shoes , tons of pants and heaps of shirts .. hahaha i need to stop shopping if not my bank account will run out soon.. well ..besides having a fanatic shopping exp here ..i also develop a new fun thing which is going to ktv .. its actually fun .. hahaha.. i am learning some chinese songs now .. and also learning chinese. . and in the process of learning picked up heaps of good friends. . and i think we will be really good friends in time to come .. hahaa.. we all had such a fun time together .. and another 1 more sem then we will go our own way .. hahaha. . but most of us doing the same course .. ti think we will be having loads of fun in time to come ..besides having fun we should also concentrate on our education .. neverless we actually did quite well so far... and we may come from different places i will make sure i do visit u sometime after we graduate .. hahah .. actually its quite early to be doing this right .. like 2 years early. . hhaha..we know that shit always occur but .. better treasure your moments before they fade as living in this life is nothing but just memories and achievements.. u maybe the richest person on earth but if ur not happy it does not mean anything .. i am really blesses with my life and i think i am quite lucky .. i may not come from a wealthy family who can spend money aimlessly but i do like my family because a person is not complete without the family ... where u can find support and comfort at ur down times and share ur happiness and wealth with them when ur doing great...

AND AS FOR U MY MISSTRESS I AM ANGRY WITH U BECAUSE OF COUNTLESS REASONS AND DISSAPOINTED WITH U TOO :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

weee..weee..wee

2008-10-01T20:43:00.001-07:00

well that picture is some of my good friends here and we really enjoy our time here because we had loads of fun time , chilling and going crazy all the time .. we are really crazy for that matter .. hahaha...well .. for starters its only about 7 weeks more b4 i go home and back to my crazy life for a few months which means .. i am kinda free for outings.. so therefore do call me out when i am back in malaysia .. well basicly those who read my blog can be counted by fingers .. such as sab , wen , mich and all hahaha ... well ... nothing much going on here besides me learning how to cook .. i can cook many many dishes here already .. and the taste of the food cooked by yours truly are really good .. and no joke . hahaha xD i think those ppl here is really lucky being able to try my cooking and they always ask me to cook

yozz !!

2008-09-03T17:14:00.000-07:00

hello everybody !
those who read my blog hahaha :D . I am doing great here . having loads of plans going on and chill with my classmates and they are a bunch of whacky whacko but they are fun xD hahhaha really do enjoy going out with them .. its like we always have humor around us !! hahha its really funny .. so back to me .. hmmm .. i feel that time is passing very fast here .. i have no idea why. . maybe its because i am having alot of fun here !! hahaha ... all we do is to plan what to do the next day .. we got no curfew no other extra activities just plain having fun xD and ALSO STUDY !! hahaha.. i have 4 assignments during my mid term break and apart from that i have 1 test right after my break on a monday . well what i have been doing recently is been going crazy healthy style .. we have been having pot luck over at different peoples place.. sometimes my place and other times in johnson's place hahah and we also ate steamboat at shawn's hahahh i dun think u guys will know who are those ppl mention there but they are da gang here xD hahha .. i did not club nor party much . just chilling around ..i did not know that i am good at cooking until recently when i started to cook for myself hahah xD it was alright ..i would not say perfect but atleast i did get some good feedback xD hahahah well.. my friends are good enough to be my lab rats .. hahaha back in malaysia i would be crazy to even wan to cook when i can get so nice food just around the corner or just bug my mum to cook for me !! but heck !! maybe when i go back i shall cook for my mum !! wakakka for her birthday !! such a good present !! hahahaha

what if?

2008-08-30T06:58:00.000-07:00

well .. hello dear loyal readers of my blog .. i know i dun have much .. cuz i dun publish my webby much .. hahaha .. altou alot of ppl links me from their blog .. hahasha.. sry if i failed to link you guys back .. i am kinda lazy !! to link .. but heck.. actually i am here to pose about .. life in aussie .. actually life here is good .. i am enjoying the life here.. cuz basicly less stressful .. and very relaxing .. and best of all .. i got a new bunch of good friends which i dun have to fake around with :) hahahaha.. well i know sometimes i can be very fake and i can be very sarcastic but here.. i am always chilling.. i have been thinking alot lately.. and i manage to think much about my life next time .. well .. actually i told b4 a few of my friends that i wan to retire early and enjoy my life and play until the day i doze off to the next world .. haahaha.. well basicly not hardcore playing but .. maybe travel around .. see more things and explore more of the world .. life is so much more then just money.. not having money is bad .. but having too much is just a pain .. hahhaa..just do what you like and not regret about your life hahahhaa..well settling down for ppl is always important .. but i am not rushing as i don't want to make any stupid decisions which i will regret later .. well life is always about supprises .. its always the case where you tought your very well prepared and life just fucks you up .. well .. its just life right ? hahaha.. but it does not harm to plan ahead .. hahah..serious ..i actually felt that some of my friends here are really lucky .. they could spend money like its nothing hahah .. how nice if i am able to do it right ? i am quite sure i won't get a car here .. so .. most problly i have to walk for the rest of my 3 years xD hahahah..but oh well .. walking is alright .. just sometimes it is pain .. hahah .. i mean i got a car so early. . and now i felt like without car ..i feel so weird .. hahah .. but oh well 3 more months and i can go back and drive.. life here is much more relax and not so much of a going out till late at night .. altou i been out a couple of times..
but club aint so fun here.. hahaha..not until i find a good bunch of friends to go out with .. hahaha most of my friends here are laid back ones.. well those who read my blog .. xD if u do know me .. make sure u do call me when i get back xD ahhaha ..

holla !

2008-08-19T20:01:00.000-07:00

hei .. sup everyone ... its been awhile since i blog .. i dun think there is people checking my blog .. hahah but heck its sapose to be known to people who know me only right !! well .. life here in aussie land is GREAT so far i have learnt MANY Things i that is priceless ... friends here are great .. we just have the right company .. we all are very close and well .. i love my class ... hahaha 1st when it started it was alright .. now its even better ... been hanging out .. going to friend's hse for dinner .. i have BEEN COOKING TOO !! in ur face whoever who thinks i am bad in cooking !! neways ... short post only .. neways hope to hear from u guys too :)

open my eyes...

2008-08-12T07:28:00.000-07:00

things that i think i wish i could say . if i can say i wish i can do . but sometimes i just don't like repeating myself. . but heck .. i love the things here... hahaha.. we all share a good time here.. well those back in malaysia will have a different meaning in life and i never knew life can be so focus and when i come here .. i really learnt how to focus on my study .. i really spend 3 hours studying management with my friends.. well the saying is true .. if u mix with ppl who wants to study u will study .. its really fun when ur enjoying the process of groupstudy .. and well basicly these are things i wont do in malaysia.. back in malaysia i have alot of other plans which stacks up like a pile of pancake waiting for me to eat one by one .. here things are really just easy going .. altou i have some language problems in communicating in chinese but i really am thankful to my parents for actually sending my to chinese classes when i was young .. hahah eventou i hated those dreadful morning and afternoon classes .. its like when i have afternoon classes in school i have to wake up at 7 to go to chinese class until 11 - 12 then come back and then get ready then rush to chinese class .. and i am thankful for dragon ball which tot me how to speak in cantonese !! i am serious but over the years i learnt more and more thx to alot of ppl .. well to name a few .. gan soo jin !! never ever EVER speak a wrong word or prepare to get shot till u die :) hahaha.. besides these language i learnt thai and viet too now !! hahha .. i can speak a few words !!! dien dao !! means very crazy in viet !! hahaha.. i seriously made a good choice coming here. . altou shiit happened here and many many things does not go along in my dictionary .. and i have to really take care of myself ..but its all good .. i am surviving and doing just fine .. hahaha wash clothes are part of my chores .. cooking and doing dishes .. and buying food !! haha .. back in malaysia many many people calls me siu ye chai .. which means young master .. cuz i have maids and i dun do nothing no chores at home at all .. but when i come here i still am able to adapt okay !! this show that i am superb !! hahah and my cooking taste good :) hahaha...i do occasionally miss you guys back in malaysia i think none of my friends here knows about this blog hahaha.. and i doubt they blog .. hahaha.. malaysia friends most of u guys are superb too hahaha.. really missed the time hanging out with u guys !! hahaha .. when i come back i will hang out with u guys .. haha and catch up on everything .. was the best decision ever and i must make sure i do my best. . aint cheap surviving here !! i am making end meets ... i sound so poor here.. well yeah i am .. my rent is a bitch !! hahah.. neways take care ya all :)

hei i am back :)

2008-08-02T19:08:00.000-07:00

hei people i am back .. sry for the lack of posting but heck i dun think i have much readers .. but hey :) hahaha..oh well .. life here in aussie started of normal .. but it became happening recently.. most of my classmates are really sporting and nice people . hahah.. well i mix with multinational people .. but mostly asian .. haha .. china ppl and vietnam ppl .. but they are really nice people .. hah ..well basicly things i did here was about the samething as in malaysia .. just that here things a more wicked. . haha.. altou it cost a bomb but i had my share of good time in the pub yesterday .. making my friends drink like an idiot and occasionally been force by them .. bloody full leh .. keep drinking beer.. but the beer here really taste good .. like water xD hahahha.. and with more kick !! hahahahha... well for pictures check out my facebook !! hahaha..

hmmmmmmmm

2008-07-15T05:19:00.000-07:00

life goes on ...hmmm life in aussie is good.. everyday i learn something now .. things i learnt so far.. wash dishes , clean toilet bowl , buying daily needs and trying to save money .. suppries ? hahahah .. well thats what u have to do when ur all alone thousand miles away from ur parents. .hahaha.. i yet to learn how to wash clothes !! hahahah dam omg right ? hahaha.. classes has been real good .. been concentrating alot :) hahah .. but then .. been slacking too .. like now i should be reading management and law .. but what the heck right ? dun worry .. i will do it tomorrow.. meet alot of friends here.. i know almost all the class now .. just those really quiet ones were left out .. but i did manage to talk to a few of those quiet ones .. hmmm got some new buddies here and life is great .. been to 2 clubs . ones call lavish another is called boulevard . or something but both are just normal .. back in malaysia night life pawns .. been to c.c here it was not as good as ftz .. life style here is not so much of a nightlife ones.. shop cloeses about 5 pm ? even if your 1 min late also no use ! hahahaha.. oh well .. atleast they are efficient and effective :P hahah back in malaysia .. they work overtime to collect extra wages hence .. they ussually do not finish their work .. lol...hmmm just a short word post.. as u all know i seldom post things up !! hahahaha

the new begining of my new life

2008-07-03T04:44:00.000-07:00

Chapter 1
this is the a whole new me in a whole new place.. not a stranger to me because i have travel to this place several times and the longest time i stayed was 1 month .. got to experience everything . So for those of you who does read my blog and not know that i left my country which is malaysia to come over to melbourne australia to study ..that's sad .. hmmm .. lets do abit of recap of what happen before i ended my party life in malaysia .. i don't know why people say i am wild .. heck i don't do stuff that you think u might catch me doing .. example : smoking , drinking too much , consuming drugs and the list goes on .. but i do like to visit the club occasionally and meet new friends and also hang out with old friends.. well.. now lets see .. a few days b4 my departure..

the 1st day i celebrated my farewell with my ex classmates , schoolmates , collegemates and friends
invited list : nigel , william , shaun , joewin , ivy , sabrina , yong xiang and jing xiu . that meal was good and we got togather and chill . we had it in dave's place on a monday night . it was good and we had pasta pizza and loads more .. the bill was about rm420

next on the list was another dinner this time with more people and it got more pricy
we had our dinner at jagoya
invited list : william , nigel , joewin , linda , ivy , soo jin , john
so we kinda stuff ourself it was sapose to be a lunch thing we eneded up having it for dinner and the bill was rm720 after that it was kungfu panda for the 2nd time hahaha.

next on the list was on wednesday . i had steamboat with cheng yang , mac and hon .
well wel chilled and enjoyed our meal ..
the price was not pricy its about rm130 ? but it was contributed by Mr Tan Cheng Yang i so wanna kill him for paying the bill.

the highlight of the farewell was on a friday at 1st i was sapose to have fammily dinner but got cancel .. then i rushed down to pick up everybody . we're on the way to david's fashion fusion and ended up ariving to just talk and leave.. cause the event has ended.. hahah.. then it was off to poppy.. we booked a vip table and open 4 bottles. . it cost about rm 1.3k i'm not so rich ya .. i dun open 10 bottles and stuff .. so back to the topic. . ahaha.. then later on my friends opened another bottle for me .. so that makes 5 bottles..
inivted list : guys : william , nigel , john , dharemen , shaun , robin , hon , kenny , loku , jia lut , chun hoe , jeowin , kin (xin ying's bf ) , jeremy , silas .
girls : linda , xin ying , shereen , yong xiang , yi wen , ivy , soo jin , elsa , sharon , su ting .

then we meet up with cai jin and friends and also ken nie.
it was a superb day .. super eye candy of the day hahaha..
ps: i dun blog with pictures now cause its consuming alot of things such as time and money i have a limited connection .. those of u back at malaysia should treasure streamyx now .. when u go overseas things are much more different.. for pictures check facebook

hmm ...

2008-06-24T10:50:00.000-07:00

a very close count down .. for all of you who reads and not know what's on .. in 4 days i'll be leaving to australia .. to be exact melbourne .. well .. i hope i'm going to love it there.. and wish to make new friends there.. there will never be too many friends .. well .. recap on what i did for this 6 whole good months which i think was the best choice to make so far in my life.. well .. in this six months i have been spending alot of time with my friends .. i have been hanging out with my friends from secondary school and i truly appreciate them for keeping me company.. altough i may call u pussies .. u guys are nice guys la .. always ended up being persuaded by me .. well .. i know ur limits so i won't push far.. and taking this 6 motnhs break really let me learnt alot of things. . like friends which are meant to stay and friends that come and go .. well .. i mean .. i like having loads of friends but i also hate to have friends that are two headed snakes or having many faces and those dogs that bite people to death in the slient .. so well .. i truly wanna say thx everybody .. for being so supportive . hahah maybe i might show that i don't care for you and don't give no fucks about anything that does not involved me ... oh well i still treasure u guys.. i won't cry on the day i leave i mean .. this is something that would eventually happen we would start to go on our ways ..this is not an emotional post this is just a recap on what happen through out the 6 months .. 1st thing working for dad .. earnt loads of cash .. spend on alot of things.. owned things i never got to own last time and did loads of things i din get to do last time like...buy brandies with my own money wahahah ... besides that .. going out with loads of frens i really appreciate ur companionship for instance nigel ( i know u have ur college and work but u still find time to go out with me thx dude.. if u did not i would have fuck u up .. wakak since we know each other so long .. fuck meaing scold zhat you ..) shaun = same as nigel we knew eachh other for the longest eventhough i tot u were a looser and u hung out with loosers last time .. but when we started to hang out because of card games .. and really appreciate u teaching me stuff and helping me in my studies .. hahaa.. william (i know we always argue and i always distrub u .. but heck time flys when we do it .. and it a hell lot better .. laughing our way all night long ) james ( we have our own stuff and we still spend time togather .. i know ur busy seeking pussy so good luck la okay? haha) hmmm there is more la.. but then i think i'll end it here today .. thats all alright .. ciaoz

prank !!

2008-06-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

alright .. today i wanna officially wish Ms . Tham Yi Wen happy birthday.(Belated) hahhaha and here is a lil something for revenge XD rawr!!!!!!

yawn..

2008-06-06T20:32:00.000-07:00

This post is just another random post . I doubt that there is any readers ... hahah neways life is coming back to me . lol .. my so called peace was just taken away from me LOL .. the main reason behind this was because of ms tham yi wen 's birthday . acctually i din realli wish her happy birthday .. hahah .. but then this small kid .. force me to club with her on wed and then on friday and today i'm going to jeowin's birthday LOL.. well ALOT OF EVEnts la neways it shall be a short post.. watch loads of movie recently .. hahah kungfu panda was cool LOL

wee

2008-05-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

i`m supprise that there is ppl reading this ever dead blog ... or maybe just droping by to read tags but hey .. lol ... neways its the time where leaving malaysia is not a dream anymore (if everything goes right ) neways.. life has been real good to me.. well . ended work and spend a shitload on stuff that i`m bringing to aussie with me.. well .. the major item on the list is my clothes .. god knows how much i spend .. well not all at once. . been collecting stuff by stuff when i c things i like .. but hey .. still .. its all worth it.. neways .. besides clothes. .. the 2nd most expensive thing i got myself was a freaking notebook .. i mean i was not a fan of notebook last time .. because i did not find the right one with the right spects .. and well ..this time i did .. and i`m using it to post this post.. well .. i know its not much if i compare to macs and stuff but a freaking hp notebook cost me 7.2k well .. u might think i got corned or something but actually i checked the price .. and well ..its all the same..plus i got loads of free stuff.. haha .. well .. the notebook ..its just good .. colour is abit gay tou its maroon .. but heck its limited edition and its awesome la.. hahaha... like everything about it its stylish .. but well u know ... ur paying for every bits of it.. ok lets go in more to other things.. the place i stay will cost me a shitload too .. about 1.4k a month and i`m talking AUD but its around that price.. cuz thats the only place left and the price is somewhere near.. but heck got lecture like mad for it.. BUT HECK its swanston and its awesome ... besides that.. things which i`m unsure about is my allowance.. i hope they dun give me a tight budget.. haha..neways.. now after quiting my job i have been going out alot .. well been to some parties which is crazy and cool and some which is LALA-fied and filled with lamers who think they are chick dudes.. neways.. i would never wanna go back there again even if i made world record by doing so .. just tormenting.. thinking about it gives me goose bumps... hmmm .. lets move on .. i suddenly have the feeling of spending alot of money..and its bad news .. i spend alot on clothes .. and other things such as the ultimate time killing kungfy dramas and an unexpected card holder from burberry ... so now basicly i`m broke .. for god knows when ...hahah...neways ... this is a very long post .. i mean i rarely post but .. gonna block about this party i went to .well its my new found fren's farewel party .. its mac aka mr tho .. and loku .. but heck it was one great night ..they had a theme which is guys dress as bitch gay and gurls dress as butch less.. and well u get the picture.. choas.. my god some of them look like the could sell em man .. hahaha.. just fanstastic but then i have to leave early.. due to some reasons.. i really have to give it my all and finish this degree and come back and take over my dad's business.. hahha... hmm i think thats about all ..

lifeless mofo

2008-05-08T20:03:00.000-07:00

well .. i can be considered lifeless nowdays .. but yet .. i beg to differ .. hahaha. .. life has been real weird .. me starting to hang out with a new group .. not new actually .. just updated with loads of new ppl .. and they are very nice ppl to hang out with .. seriously. . they are very friendly and sporting plus they have this very slacking personality :P just the bunch of whacko i needed to spend my last few months here wakaka... plus i dun think anybody does read this blog so .. yeah .. post ends :)

fate or destiny...

2008-05-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

hmmm ... a very dead blog indeed ... dun blame me for that =D .. life has been great ..well last week .. was good .. it was all good .. hahaha. .. last week end .. i went to genting with soo jin , nigel , dharemen , and a few more of my new found frens. . they were a bunch of superbly sporting dudes.. and we had such a lovely trip hahah... well .. it all started with me and jin wanting to go on a holiday .. but then .. we din know where.. she wanted some air.. so we decided to go genting .. neways.. we kinda planned 2 weeks ahead .. to be exact .. so i called up my mum to book rooms for us because labour day falls on that week .. and its kinda pack there.. so .. lucky we got 3 rooms .. haha.. so .. there is about 10 of us. .. we reached there earlier then the 2nd car .. therefore we kinda play chor dee to kill some of our time .. later on when they arrive.. we left for lunch and. . bought movie tickets. .. then we went to arcade and then go back to the room and rest.. we watch iron man at 11 .. and after that it was back to the room for some kick ass drink .. every 1 was freaking drunk that night .. haha we had laods of games and well .. those mother fuckers bloody aim me again.. i dun know why ppl like to ask me to drink but hey.. i`ll play along xD wakakak ..well there is alot of small story inside .. and all of them realli made that trip a superb one. . hahah..neways ...thats all for now...

hello !!

2008-04-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

dear readers :
I'm proud to tell u that my visa application has been approved ..well .. its a god dam relief for me. . i feel so much better now .. and life has been very peaceful lately.. nice time to relax and just kick back and enjoy... but now i have another thing going on my mind .. this is because due to my dad's health condition i mean nothing has happen la .. but in the long run i would not know .. cuz he is actually a cancer surviver which has a few more years to lived.. and well .. i need to learn up all his business and carry on his business.. well the thing is .. i might have to skip education for that purpose. .. still thinking but decisions will be made only during end of this year which is after my 1st semester in aussie .. i`m so looking forward to it .. but then .. aihh.. i`m just worried about not being able to get used to it ... haha.. i will be funny telling u guys about doing laundry and stuff. . but hei .. there will alwiz be a 1st time :) so ... why not :P i shall take the challange :) plus .. its time for me to grow up xD hwahahah.. neways its just a short post .. wish me luck :)

Are You Sad?

2008-04-13T10:09:00.000-07:00

hahaha.. lately i'm addicted to my old fav band .. OUR LADY PEACE ... well if u got time to spare. . u should really give them a try... u should try some of their songs like are you sad and theif .. all their songs are very meaningful .. so .. recently i'm busy preparing for my departure.. oh well .. LOVING IT .. hahaha.. seriously i think i would not regret much la.. just maybe a couple of slackers xD hahah .. but oh well .. will be back soon :) hahaha... life has been all good.. my mum might be getting a new car .. and i hope its a caldina .. there is a chance .. but still in consideration .. oh well .. not like i get to drive for long .. but hey .. it will be sweet when i get home after my 5 months in aussie .. hahhaa...been hanging with the usual slacker .. like jin and ivy and wen .. hahahah xD meet jee king recently.. and went for nicole ong's birthday .. haha .. hope u had a great one .. hahahaha ..so .. i got not much pictures... but i`ll post some ..

loveless

2008-04-05T03:14:00.000-07:00

the fact that i'm always free now days .. made me think that sometimes friends intend to come and go .. some do stay and some just move on .. i always knew that friends would not always be there for you .. but u cant blame a person for having high hopes right ?? oh well .. life is always on the move and u must always accept new things in life.. and one of the things are new friends .. but never loose your roots.. but for some reason .. i think that most of my friends aren't really mature enough .. they think that loving some one is a like a must .. that they can die without a partner .. i mean serious... oh well .. i`m not the one to judge .. but hey .. get a life .. do not get sad over a girl just because u did your part.. love is not always that way .. love is something not logical .. u can measure your love for someone by the things u did .. i`m amaze by how foolish people can get when they claim that their in love.. well maybe this only happens to me but. . when some 1 treat u good that does not mean that .. he or she loves you .. yet a lot of people mistaken it as if that certain someone has some crush on you .. i mean what if u never had sex b4 in your life .. it that a shame that u never fuck a pussy b4 in ur life ?? i mean .. there is more to life then just having partner .. having a partner in life is so norm now days .. some were meant to last and some were just random hook ups .. the thing about this puppy love .. its just funny .. the fact that people say that when u fall in love u`ll feel different or rather find peace and tranquility in your life ... but u would never know that your so call partner's feelings .. everybody can tell u a white lie .. telling how much that person love you .. and worse of all u end up getting hurt more then ever ... oh well .. people move on .. love forever is something meant for fairy tales where everybody live happily and ever after .. when u die u die without know anything after that .. thats something i belief ... and after life is something that only the creator himself knows.. to be frank i have nothing against relationships just that .. must some people be clinging over ur partner and not have ur own life .. seriously .. oh well ... oh btw. .. i was playing this game called final fantasy 7 crisis core.. the game was superb. . very good graphics and story line .. and i like the loveless acts xD wakakka.. neways. . take care.. this post was mean to be all crap ..

something like a crisis

2008-03-31T19:30:00.000-07:00

hei ... this update kinda took sometime.. its been awhile since i ever felt like bloging .. .well ..nothing much has happen .. just feeling a lil tired .. life has been good so far...xD had alot of things going on .. been realli busy preparing to go to aussie xD well .. for 1 thing .. i cant wait because .. i`m kinda bored here .. and i realli hope that i have a good time there.. hahaha. . one of the many things is to meet new great frens .. xD hahaha.. thats one thing u alwiz look forward to when ur trying out something new in life.. hahah xD ..there is this chinese proverb which says that when u go out .. u can depend on ur fren .. i hope that i`ll meet good frens there xD hahaha ... oh well .. back to the updates .. i have not been doing anything much .. nothing out of the blue .. but been hanging out with loads of ppl.. ppl like ivy , soo jin and yi wen .. well .. very weird la.. everytime i`m the onli guy .. oh well .. shucks .. neways. . went to maison on thursday .. was alright .. then mardi on saturday .. hmm .. watch movie with ivy and jin on friday .. haha. . L change the world. . altou it does not have anything related to death note.. but hei .. not so bad la.. i din get to watch the episode 1 and 2 .. so oh well. . haha... i kinda watch the anime .. so not so bad la .. that near is kinda funny.. xD ..i`m actualy amaze by the plots of death note.. the power is realli meaningless .. but the way they expose the culprit was good wey ... xD hahhaa...i`m currently in love with ff7 crisis core .. omfg man .. the story line was remarkable .. and yet it was great graphics .. oh well its worth every rm 165 for it .. xD ahahaa.. well thats about it la... i`m turning lame la -.- or should i say i`m getting old for all the so called fun things... clubs aint my 1st choice of chillout and going crazy aint my middle name anymore .. neways it was never my middle name xD ahahha ..<==lame joke xD

hei

2008-03-03T20:15:00.000-08:00

hello ppl ... life has been calm this few days ...i did nothing out of the expected and out of the odinary .. and i`m certainly enjoying peace an tranquility..remember back when i was in sam .. 2007 enjoy a good sleep was truly a bless... even now .. i sleeping is truly somethign very precious.. the thing is .. i dun really get enough rest lately because .. somehow time flies very fast .. 2 months back i was still thinking about omg. . so long more till i can fly off.. and yet.. now everything starts to fall into shape..for u peeps who din know ..there is a high chance for me to be flying to aussie at the mids of june..well .. abit about wat i found out recently.. i`m a aquarian dragon .. a person who loves freedom and does not wish to be tied down by any sorts of commitment ..the thing about me is .. i think that it is true .. both my zodiac refers to something with great power .. and will retaliate when is force.. water in a way can cause great diaster and gentle as formless .. and dragon having the power to cause great diaster and i`m an earth dragon .. haha .. they say that i`m a person who likes to move from place to place time to time .. group to group ..and a person who would either engage in a relationship early or be single later on .. and i would not be lonely as i have many partners in life. . haha ..well i dun know about this .. but if its going to be like this .. why not .. recently .. i have been changing groups of frens. . alot of them .. i start to get bored with the life here. . and i wish i could find new life .. that was my idea of leaving the country.. the thing is .. i dun know weather should i have a farewel or not. . because. .. it wil make it super emotional .. altou i`ll be okay with it .. but i dun like la .. if ppl get emo about this.. but i think there wont be any 1 who cares about me leaving :) hahaha.. neways i think i shall leave a poll
so here it is...

PollPub.com Voteshould i have a farewell

feeling nostalgic...

2008-02-23T04:04:00.000-08:00

hey... ever tot when u leave your safe zone to venture into the real world to be scary .. because thats what i was thinking about few years back .. from the time after my form 3 paper i was sapose to fly to perth to study in murdoch college .. i kinda rejected the offer because i felt i was not ready to leave my life in malaysia .. so yeah .. i decided to stay back ... i did not regret it at all .. i became active in leo .. a social club which allows me to do many things.. and i truly enjoy every sec of it.. there was a lot of things that made me feel good about my doings and many other things that made me feel bad .. such as bitching about other ppls and stuff.. oh well that was the past .. leo 2005/2006 was great .. we got to know each other so well .. and our friendship still remains until now .. regardless of our busy life.. well all of us has certainly moved on .. then it was form 5 after spm .. i was sapose to go to aussie to continue my studies... but then i choose to stay.. because i wanted to enjoy more.. so i enrolled myself in south australian matriculation in taylors college ... it was all good .. meet alot of new frens there.. do not regret a single beet... after 2007 .. its 2008 now .. and by this june .. i`ll be furthering my studies in aussie.. without any regrets. . because. . i feel life here is getting very dull because.. friends were never like they were back in the olden days ... we had so much fun .. and looking back at them. . just brings back sweet memories... we been tru a lot .. frens do come and go all the time .. and i admit .. some frens was not even worth of me calling them frens .. and some other ppl who treat me so good but yet i did not spend time with them .. i feel bad for doing so .. every1 has 1 life and it is very short..this moment i could be standing here talking to u and the next moment .. we cant be in different worlds .. touch wood.. i`m not cursing any of my frens or myself .. i mean .. we must really treasure life that god has given to us ..i treasure my frens as much as i could .. i would not like to compare 1 to another 1 .. because they are all that important .. as long as ur good to me ..being 2 face and bitching about me brings u no where..for i am not some1 with huge fame.. i`m just me and doing that will just make things worse.. this that i did not wan to happen happen alot to me recently .. example of a fren being a bitch to me and my frens .. this is something i hate.. i use the word hate to express how badly it was ... if money could buy u frens ... u should be worrying about ur frens .. so i think its about time for me to move along ... i would not want to be stuck in malaysia anymore.. its not like i despite the life here.. just that its never been progressing as much as i would expect .. i need to find a new life.. hahah.. actually i have alot to share with u guys but i cant put it in words to express how does it feel ..oh well .. but hey. . works great... feeling much more better now xD neways .. i shall update more... i hope..

i`m bored and sick

2008-02-17T18:00:00.000-08:00

had a bad flu today ... and i`m still working .. work sucks .. and its nuts here .. hahaa .. my work load is increasing .. life is just zZZ.. alright .. a lil updates on things i did .. last week .. well lets c .. last week was one of the most tiring week as far as i know .. i have been sleeping atleast at 1am and wakes up for work the next morning ..so yeah .. its been really hetic..basicly all of us are still stuck in the cny mood.. and yeah we had loads of plans like hanging out and shiits.. the highlight of the week was ..the drinking party .. which was sapose to knock every1 out .. but then sadly ..it was not that on as alot of them still remain sober.. hahaha..so yeah .. there shall be a next round as we onli finish 2/9 bottles..so we still got loads more to drink ..hahaha ..valentiens ... was just normal .. i had dinner.. with david .. nicole .. jesslyn ..kuan lin .. wei hui and amanda .. the food was just ZZ ..after that went to scarlet. . it was alright .. left quite early.. went home to sleep xD hahaha..alright .. i shall stop blogging here .. and will update soon with pictures :) .. i dun have many readers so yeah XD hahaha

i was ditch...

2008-02-11T19:14:00.000-08:00

this post is a tribute to miss tham yi wen .. for ditching me.. well .. altou i said it was alright .. but hey ..i`m still going to let ppl know about it ... i`m not angry or anything but .. kinda dissapointed lar not that i`m sad or anything .. just because... u were the freaking 1 who was the 1 who emo-ed earlier and well...being the obvious good guy .. i wanted to fulfil my word which i promised earlier on to bring u for shopping .. so yeah .. u said ur free on monday i said okay. . we shall plan in the morning ... after sleeping at 2am .. i decided to wake up in the morning and go out .. so drop yaz a msg to call me back asap.. so okay.. u did .. and u said u wanan go gym ...i said okay then i felt like wah liew.. then u open ur bigh mouth (:P) saying .. lets go for late lunch ... so i said okay.. since i have to make a run to idp .. so yeah .. went over there and setle my stuff.. while waiting ... drop her a msg. ...10 mins later onli reply.. ==! like omg? and with bad news. saying that she cannot go la .. this lar that lar.. i`m like wtf wey .. ditch me like hell onli .. lucky i had extra plan..i buzzed peggy asked her where is she .. she said she is at home. .. and said she is free... ask me to ring. . yi rhu .. and ask to hang out .. i said okay.. rang yi rhu .. rhu camed and wait for me .. after finishing our things.. we were off to pick up peggy... so yeah ... picked her up.. then went over to 1u to pick yen vern .. and went over to yi rhu`s hse .. and chilled eat loads and loads of cookies. and chilled till 7 ..fetch .. vern back .. and went over to jin`s to pick her up ... went for steamboat.. the funiest thing was ..waiting for that lou sai to serve us .. it took about 50 mins for the soup to be serve.. and another 20 for those steamboat stuff ...so yeah basicly that mean took us about 2 hours and 30 mins .. after finishing everything .. we were like omg..so full ..then .. its running late also .. fetch peggy to klcc over to her sis .. because i`m affraid of getting lost in saujana... so yeah .. after that sent jin home.. and went back ... weeeeee.. reach home. . at 11 something. ..on the way back i was talking to yi wen on the phone for about 20-30 mins .. about her ditching me ..i manage to made her feel guilty .. and i was doing it all night long. . oh well she deserve it. . she rather accompany her precious earnest ... and ditch me .. how briliant .. i never ever asked her to ditch her frens for me .. oh well .. its just a post to make her feel even more guilty...

bored

2008-02-08T07:18:00.000-08:00

hahaha..pratically i dun have any readers around i think so .. yeah ;P .. cuz i`m trying to keep a low profile about my blog. . neways .. the reason i`m blogging now is because i`m darn tired .. and bored and also hungry .. sighs. .. its just getting boring every single day. . haha .. i cant wait to fly over to aussie xD and live a new life .. well a few certain recent events had created alot of havoc in our gang .. well there is obviously that u know same shirt same pants gurl .. and the all frugal guy.. well .. yeah ...times like this makes u wanna tell urself .. just fuck them off.. well basicly i did ..sometimes they should leearn to respect others :P hahaha.. neways ... it shall be a short post onli ..happy cny to all .. and may u win as much as posible ;P hahaha

i would not like this to happen but ?

2008-02-04T08:16:00.000-08:00

okay .. .well this is a personal blog for me to rant :) right ?? hahaha. . well... basicly .. i had alot of problems lately.. because.. . i just dun know wats wrong with my mood .. alot of things happen lately.. i kinda had an arguement with one of my fren .. oh well she was being very inconsiderate..ahaha...alright... u should know when ppl say no means no .. and i`m dam hell serious when i said it .. i said it once and i wont repeat... u wanna act like ur some sort of big shiit .. let u be lar.. actually most of the time i was just chilling onli .. not that i like to hang out with it .. i actualy din wan to lose a fren but. . oh well its final.. i shall not go out with u anymore .. as far as i concern .. oh well .. one more thing .. i`m feeling dam pissed with another of my so called friend. . oh well recently he just came back .. and we din realli know his attitude but he was being nice when he comes down on and off.. but recently i felt dam pissed with his frugal attitude.. alright lar let me tell u 1 thing lar. .if u cared so much about how much u have.. u can bring ur money to ur grave and that does not bothers mean .. just when u have problems and u feel lonely please do not come find me .. i`m seriously telling u this. . i`m not the only one feeling this .. the person i mention had this intention of cheating his fren`s money. . and well ppl who do this. .. should deserve to be isolated.. who cares if u come back with a loads of stuff..when ur not willing to share.. u can just keep watever u have and save it for urself .. all i know is .. the next time i would have something ..like a drinking sesion or something .. i would seriously consider ur atitude before calling .. if ur reading this.. u would already notice that i`m not calling u out anymore. . even for clubs or normal mamak with the gang .. its not my fault .. but u tried to do something funny behind our back .. and well .. u deserve it ;)

muahahah my birthday xD

2008-01-27T04:43:00.000-08:00

hmmm well .. lets c .. 25 was a boring day .. the highlight of the day was dinner with my family then off to carlos with david and jeremy. . hahah .. and well .. afte that sapose to rush over to 15 to meet up with renee.. but then .. the thing is. . she asked to go mardi .. but then.. she ditch me. . i went over to mardi because nicole and jess asked me to go over for awhile .. well .. we just chilled awhile .. drank beer and it was time for me to leave.. haha i had to run off so early because i was driving a pumpkin car .. haha according to my sister in law the muarno would turn into a pumpkin if i do not reach home in time .. well obviously i know it wont lar. . just that she wanted me to come home early ... they bought a cake for me.. plus its her car .. so yeah xD went home and and cut de cake .. and gamble.. hahah .. nothing much .. on 26th .. i was out doing my stuff then .. when i came home i was tired... then i headed down to 1u with ian .. picked up wen on the way .. renee followed her bf there.. so .. yeah we were sapose to meet up at tgif at 7 but then i think most of us reached at about 7.40++ ahaha .. well expected from malaysian timing .. well those who were present there was .. me (obviously) james nigel shaun william silas adrian and ian for the guys.. and gurls was renee wen nicole jess and soo jin .. well yeah .. kinda big. haha .. well the atmostsphere was abit low .. because some of my frens fren passed away so okay lar forgiven .. well then .. we had our dinner there and the bill was about 500 bucks lar.. iayar .. once in a blue moon lar. . haha.. okay.. besides that .. we went over to mardi .. and opened a bottle of chivas .. we had our party there.. and it was just nice .. all those crazy party goes were there.. and well it lighten up the day ..ahhaa.. well thats my party for the year.. well its good because everything was just alright .. no havoc and no shiits.. now i`m just worried about cash xD i`m officialy broke again xD weeeeeee

happy birthday to myself

2008-01-24T23:43:00.000-08:00

hmmm ... nothing realli happen during my birthday .. i guesse i`m alwiz wanting to have a low down 1.. haha .. even if it was too many ppl it would be just another havoc. . haha .. alright i spend my eve with renee ,adrian , ian and nigel in ftz asia .. got pawned like mad. . hahaha .. oh well there will alwiz be a 1st time to everything .. spending my birthday in cc .. woah . oh well .. loads of ppl remembered .. and thx ... ahhaa.. i din know so many ppl would remember .. haha .. the fact that i hide my birthday date from ppl.. friendster does not show my birth date .. haha so .. yeah .. those who knows me more would know when izzit. . hahaa..well .. alot of things happened lately. . haha either some of my frens does not remember or yeah .. plain playing prank haha.. well .. lets c .. nothing much i want to blog about .. just that i think sometiems life is not fair because... my bro got a freaking phone for his birthday and i got nothing .. bummer .. aihh.. nvm lar ... i actually expected it la. . haha .. well i shall c wat presents i receive this year.. haha if i would be some lame ass shiits. . i would have no regards of forgeting ppl`s birthday years to come ..and yeah ...i din get and presents so far ... and talk about me forgeting ppls birthday onli a hand full of ppl remembers mine.. hahaha.. oh well life is like that xD thx neways for those who wished me :P

something that i do not understand...

2008-01-21T08:32:00.000-08:00

hmmm ... something realli bothers me when somebody out of the blue mentions that i`m rich .. i mean i`m serious when i say that i wanted to know badly wat was ur definition of rich .. because i saw alot of types of rich ... from those whoes just avaragely till those earning figures beyond expectations .. i mean .. some ppl does not even earn 100k per year and some does.. some does not even earn 1m tru out theif life .. and some just spends them off like it was nothing towards them ...well for those who know me u can judge lar. . but those who dun even know where do i stay giving me a reply like iayar u need to work or not ==! but hey seriously i`m working ... i can take up responsibility when i need to .. its not that i choose to work for a shorter time .. but ..oh well .. i mean i still wanna enjoy wats left of my holidays before i leave right ? and well ...just let me share something with if there is any reader out there... lets c.. u have this fren.. his kinda close to u .. somekinda of ur good fren lar..where u hang out with him alot of trust him alot but recently he does not apear like wat it seems last time .. i know he used to cheat ppls money but then he even dared to try on me .. i mean like wtf. .. its too much ... besides that. .. he is being so unrational.. he had this gf .. because of some certain reasons .. they broke up .. but he spread some rumors about her .. i mean its not nice lar.. and he told us to isolate her .. i mean i think ur the reason why our group is breaking up .. have u not sense that ur actions were not realli rational and u should actualy take this chance and change urself b4 trying to condem other ppl for hanging out with ppl u dun like ..u told me about me having to hold grudges of ppl .. but hey u should stop too .. i mean once the relationship is over .. let it be over ..not that i wanna bitch about anything but sometimes u should try to refrain urself from doing silly actions .. and thats not just the onli time u did it .. u coupled with a wild gurl u should know how much love u should put into the relationship.. to make sure that ur on the safe side.. and not getting urself hurt ..i kinda gave up being ur fren because of ur scams .. ur not the person i used to hang out with .. who sees himself highly and now u became somebody who shine`s ppl shoe and hangs out with ppl who are classified as loosers in my dictionary.. u should know wat kinda frens u should keep and wat kinda frens u can lose.. and not judge them on their pocket size ..a fren in need is a fren indeed .. all i could say is one day when u find urself in trouble i dun know who u would call but lets just hope somebody is there to save ur sorry ass.. i know i asked alot of questions and i coment alot on many things.. i know u trust ur fren alot but then u do hurt ur fren alot also sometimes .. ur not asking ppl for a favour ur actualy demanding it .. it should not be this way .. u should have compassion for ur fren and not finding frens who will just listen to u .. any tom dick and harry can do that .. u lose ur trusted frens for frens whom u think will help u .. but then .. when u find that somehow they betrayed u .. u shall have no 1 to seek for aid but onli urself to blame of ur actions..he is the kinda of ppl that blames ppl for his own mistakes.. he could actualy blame some 1 for stealing his gf but the truth was the broke up because he was being a jerk .. he was trying to control a wild gurl ?? i do not wish for this post to be read by him but then if he ever do .. please i did it for a good reason .. not that i`m trying to back stab u but then u do not listen to explanation .. i know somehow this would cause our frienship to go havoc but yet i`m risking it to try and make u aware of ur problems ...

i`m darn bored

2008-01-10T22:11:00.000-08:00

hello dear readers .. maybe i do not have many or none at all .. haha..well thats not much of a supprise .. because its a dead blog .. which i onli post from time to time. . and i`m not a pro-blogger... haha .. the 1 thing i have been doing just recently was reading the blog about this guy name kennysia .. oh well his that infamous blogger .. the reason that i`m doing that was because i`m bored.. i`m working currently in my dad`s office ..therefore reading became my past time .. i would not want to be like him ..his famous and all .. and its funny when u read his post or not his post but the way he brings out the topic and being bombard by tons of comments.. the funniest thing i read so far was something about him getting his fore skin remove from his penis .. oh well .. certainly a weird topic to be discuss but it did receive loads of hits. . haha..i`m not trying to find fault with any party .. i`m just expressing my personal opinion .. its funny .. to c him entertain loads of ppl with his small humor it certainly entertain me while i`m working ... hahah .. alright .. basicly i just started working in my dad`s company .. well no names shall be disclose.. nor anything private... i`m working as an accounts clark .. literarly .. haaha.. doing wat ever my dad`s accountant wants me to do .. at 1st i was sapose to work as part time -.- now more like full time .. its getting very boring .. and loads of work pilling up .. oh how i wish i was now being a freeloader .. haha.. doing nothing but spending money like nobody`s business hahaha... siens man .. hahah.. i`m amaze that i understand myself more and more now days .. my limits towards having a deciving life .. haha .. its funny how i change frens year by year .. not change as in having any problem with them .. just that we just reduce the time hanging out with each other. . and most of my frens knew by now i`m a sole nomand .. moving from pack to pack just to survive .. haha .. well i used to hang out with the group of frens which goes out alot and hang out in clubs pubs .. bars .. now days i spend most of my time .. hanging out chilling out .. watching movies -.- mostly my place with my frens. . haha .. its a great thing to do when u have the right company .. life does not need to be in a way that has everything to do with gurls. . and we should be worried about looking for a certain cup of tea because there would be that perfect some1 waiting for u .. awaiting for the perfect time and the right moment to apear in ur life.. hahah xD thats when shiit happens ;P Hhohohohoho.. xD alright dudes... take care ..

yet again i things did change for the better

2008-01-04T04:42:00.000-08:00

well .. for all my readers which i dun think i have many .. well .. alot had happen lately... most of it refers to the education thing .. hahah .. well i`ll be leaving to melbourne in a date TO BE ANNOUCE .. hahaha.. i shall not tell u guys because i wanna keep it a secret. . whaha. .. u might wake up one day and notice that i`m gone xD hahaha.. well i`m sure no body would miss me much .. haha .. oh well lets c .. i`ve got into royal melbourne institute of technology -.- well i`m happy for that ... now days i have been missing in action alot .. haha.. some of my frens complain that i do not hang out with them that much .. well today i`ll go club for ur sake .. hahaha... well .. its not that i have any thing against anything. . just that i`m not keen on going anymore ... because life has more to offer then just club .. oh well .. a short post will do :)

felt like hell

2007-12-20T20:32:00.000-08:00

alright ... those of u with those good grades i do realli think u guys truly deserve them -.- on the other hand .. mine was just horible.. haizh .. well i did not missed much just 4 points. . oh well life is just like that.. i would not be my freaking smooth ride... well.. a lil something to share with u guys .. out there thinking about fucking and shiit -.- hahaha... well there is nothing to be a shame about being a virgin because LIFE WOULS FUCK U UP IN THE END serious.. -.- and the feeling is just fuck up -.- haizh ... well i qoute that from my fren .. mr loon -.- oh well ..a lil about my life .. actualy i do not realli seek for perfection nor being at the top .. i just want a peaceful life being to do watever i wan to do ... and have the financial freedom to do it.. well i have been doing alot of thinking lately... i tot of working .. because working for my dad would be the fastest way to achieve financial freedom ... i have to suffer a few years thats for sure... nothing comes easy ...actualy i have about as much fun and its getting boring now ... seriously.. i wished that i would have thrown more time into my studies ... well i have no 1 to blame except the counseler and myself ..they told me math was complusory but then it wasnt.. alot of my frens did not do math for fuck sake ... why was i that stupid -.- i knew that math would fuck me up for sure .. well it did .. and the feeling was just biazzar -.- oh well .. i`m still very lost -.- i may look okay because i`m okay... but just not good... feeling abit distrub .. and my mood is not that good at all ...

my life ..

2007-12-17T02:26:00.000-08:00

my life is just blur .. sadly its alwiz like this after an exam .. because i`m alwiz in a hanging situation thx to my best fren which does not fail to gain popularity among my hatred list... well its my most hated subject.. i`m so sry mrs lim .. but its math xD hahaha... well .. results are about to release in std deviation 1 week .. haizh .. so bloody scary ... oh well just live life to the fullest .. i dun know lar ... oh well .. life has been great .. loas happen lately... 1st of there was a holiday i alwiz dream off .. doing everything i wanted to onli and not anymore.. but sadly there was chores.. maybe some of u thinks that i dun do chores. .. well chores in my hse is abit different...they do not come with a home word ... cuz its usually outdoor jobs -.- like getting some stuff.. thats what i get for having a car and able to drive around ..being familiar with roads .. haha...oh well ... life was certainly being nice to me.. financial status should be alright. . considering the fact that i cut down on clubs now days .. hahaha... well its something some of my frens would kill me if they would know .. so be it... well now days i have been hanging out alot with james and william basicly the 3 of us are just whacko .. haha .. we have been doing loads.. been club .. drinking my hse.. ppls hse and hang out alot .. haha... i would not write diary but more towards an update on my life .. haha .. well ... cuz if i would list down every single thing i did .. it would take years.. haha... some new things added to my family was the ferrari spider f355 ... well its nice ... i mean its kinda useless considering the fact that u would have to check on the whether b4 u can drive it out for a spin .. its soft top .. so .. if its heavy rain .. tough luck -.- hahaha...then saposingly i`ll be getting x-trails driving on be half of my mum since she said it was okay.. haha... well .. i love high cars now days .. altou no more drifting and shiits... but hei ... ramping tru humps xD beats drifting .. oh well ... next up ... my mum bought me a burberry wallet from japan .. its black label onli japan has it .. so i guesse it would be special .. hahah xD well i love it. . but i dun use it.. i dun know why. .i cant use new wallet -.- even my fendi its consider new tou .. hahaha... well i`m back to my old versace ;P yet i dun have gucci and lv .. haha so i`m not in those rich ppl club ;P wahaha... been spending alot on shoes i bought myself 2 pair of shoes .. 1 from mark and spencer and another 1 from ... timberland.. hahaha...1 looks like a more formal wear another 1 looks like sneakers. . haha.. well .. i`m in need for more shoes .. hahaa... n i got myself another new perfume .. well alot of ppl has it so no big deal .. its ck euphoria. .. hunter and james would kill me xD haha.. next target would be hugo xy .. that will be obtain when i`m visiting hong kong .. haha.. actually i wanted to blog a couple of times b4 this... and everytime when i decided to blog .. my mood change.. neways. . i dun think alot of ppl reads the blog ;p wahahha ... so .. if u do read. . leave me a msg xD hahaha heres from pictures...

hahaha...

2007-11-19T04:17:00.000-08:00

oh well i might as well join in the fun ... since my fren blog about his perfume collection ==!
hahahaha... well ....let me start...
i have polo black...

hmmm i got polo sport

Dkny be hugo boss in motion or something ...

hmmm i have mont blac cool water

david doff cool water

ck2u

ckone

ckbe

cketernity

and 2 more lauder for men ... which was a present from my mum ==!

hmmm ... well thats about all i have... actualy there is more ... which is dkny bedelicious and polo clasic..heh...
i`m looking forward in getting polo blue ... mont blac starwalker , ck euphoria <-- which is soon ...and hugo boss XY hahaha .. it would be cool if my partner uses XX haha ..

the source of energy

2007-11-16T22:00:00.000-08:00

wweeee.. many days has passed since i last posted. . anything on this blog .. okay.. i`ll be dead ... and dreaded by the accounting test .. which is coming .. another 3 more days..funny thing is ... today is a post which is sapose to be just random rant.. hahaha... lets c....after exams ... we have class party.. after class party .. we have. . prom .. after that ... end of college. .. college to me was a blend of fun .. and torment .. alots of ups and downs... barely making through it. .. haizh .. iwish that i could pick another course but with the same classmates... they are all very fun ;) hahaha maybe lack of unity .. but its still okay... cant blame us because most of us has different time table .. hehehe....during the begining of the year was alright... all of us tried to get to know each other .. we kinda hang out... then after that.. shiit happens... alot of us has some problems with each other.. till almost the end of the 2nd sem ... we started to notice our days are running short in sam ... so we decided to make changes..and now .. alot has changed.... notice that alot of us communicate more . hahaha...sounds real funny ..we had steamboat gathering at yuen..altou alot of ppl could not make it .. but it was fun .. we had movies .. and loads...

dedicated to my fren

2007-11-10T19:49:00.000-08:00

hello =D.... my readers.. hahaha.... today i`m posting for my fren ... jeremy ong... well nice day out with them .. hahahaha... all i can say... sometimes do not think ur frens alwiz there for u .. cuz.. wat i c .. some of them are not realli there for u .. hehehe .. well .. friday was a night out in the club ... celebrating jeremy`s birthday .. hahaha... alot of us were there.. yi wen .. siang david .. shang hong .. just to name a few.. alot of funny and sad things happen .. and i feel like smacking alen from mardigras.. man his freaking rude to his customer... bloody hell scold us samore.. not like ppl want to vomit right .. bastard .. samore increase the price likd mad... ==! man .... haizh .. and yiwen`s cam spoiled... thats another thing .. she was freaking sad about it.. hahaha.....well i will post further about more things in my life in the next post :)

have u ever felt like dying?

2007-10-28T04:23:00.000-07:00

heiii readers... if i had any... i know my blog is often dead.. due to my crazy life.. yes... somehow at 1 point it was crazy.. and now is time to put a stop to it.. for those who know wat course i`m doing .. my results are bad. .. not all bad.. just not as good lar.. oh well its expected lar.. u know i`m not those super smart and hardworking kids.. i`m just an avarage learner ..so my grades are exceptionaly okay..haizh.. but i dun know lar.. besides education other things are alright ... hmmmm.. now .. let me tell u something happen recently..for those who know me well enough u should know that i treasure friendship .. yes..somehow i dun like to fight with my frens cuz maybe i used to hurt ppl alot .. not my force but words .. but then now days i dun do it anymore .. hahaha... so .. back to my frens..1st of all .. there is shaun .. i knew him since 7? thats 11 years long :) almost 12 years edi :) we sort of argued not long back .. and then we went on not talking with each other for quite sometime.. until lately.. he decided to apologize to me.. which i accepted.. (take note:if it was my fault i`ll apologize) okay.. back to my story .. so after that ..if felt good .. we were frens back and we sort of hang out .. so yeah ..back to normal lar.. then there is another gurl in my college .. we argue about something which is just plained stupid .. i also sort of making things worst .. so i take initials to aplogize to her .. and we are good again :).. as for case 3.. we were good frens for about 2 years plus /minus..altou i cant blame entirely on him for his mistakes .. but ofcourse i can help getting angry because he cause alot of havoc.. yes.. maybe everything is fine .. now ..and yes he took the initials to apologize to me .. and i kinda accepted it too :) but then things werent the same as last time :) because maybe i dun c him approaching me and all ...frienship is something like a give and take ..if u dun give i dun take .. :) and the reason i`m feeling like hell now cuz exams are so near...and i just started revising ..haizh... i realli wanna go australia to study .. atleast i wanna try lar.. but somehow i cant concentrate lar.. haizh... and my car has broken down .. i cant go out .. for a spin which i think i realli need.. i realli need to get some fresh air.. i realli wan to speed for the sake of the thrill maybe just to release my stress..and i stoped clubbing for almost a month now ..i`m so proud to say :) hahahaha.. and i started back 1 of my fav game ..which i used to play alot last time .. hahaha.. not playing but just botting...basicly i wan my life to be something .. i`m feeling rather pathetic and rather lost.. i wan guidance from some 1.. i think i need to find some 1 to acompany me in this so lost world... hahaha.. but that some1 needs to understand me alot .. hahaha.. as i can be very unpredictable ... and yet predictable ==! so basicly my month sounds like a song ... every month in this year has its song... and i think this month its apologize by one republic presented by timbaland :) oh yeah .. if u do read.. please leave me a tag.. i wanna shave bold .. leave comments :) and i shall consider :)

feeling rather guilty or maybe i'm just being a vain

2007-09-29T23:55:00.000-07:00

hello to all my readers :) altou i dun think any 1 reads this blog ... so called private lar =D oh well .. loads had happen this month.. crossing out from the list was was trials including all my hopes of getting good grades .. *shivers me* to think about the results.. ofcourse as usualy my math was off the hook .. it was terible .. and econs was another hell of a pain ... along with accounts ... guesse i have no future in studying ... or izzit those papers were just meant to torture us .. oh well god knows..i have been hearing alot of words of gods from my fren .. for example .. hatred is a sin .. learn to forgive and forget.. well forgive is a thing that ppl wished to be .. when u have done something wrong .. u wish u will be forgiven ... but it does not alwiz happen that way.. not in my dictionary.. or atleast until u can care to show some effort rather than being just plain pathetic.. i wont not wan my frens pathetic .. eventou the way we view things may be differ ..but some how i think there is a reason for ur actions and somehow the actions must have be done after hard thinking ..i admit this .. we all have our weakness.. we are not meant to be perfect .. and i do not ask for a perfect fren .. something somehow not just plain pathetic.. we have to learn to adapt to our weakness as ur weakness may out shine other ppls ..as u may think ur stupid but somehow u may not be .. u may think ur smart .. but there are millions of ppl smarter then u .. i treasure the memories and our friendship as years are figures but feelings may not be the same :) somethng may seem like a year but i can last all eternal ..so when u try to advice me on any situations on pros and cons please be aware that i`m aware of it .. its just that ..somehow i do not find the mean to talk to him ..or i should say forgiving is a gradual process which takes time.. forget is much faster ;)

i`m not emo-ing

2007-09-15T06:54:00.000-07:00

have u every had one of those days where u wake up early in the morning eventhough u slept like 4 am in the morning ur still able to wake up like 11 am ?? haha =D conisder good for me lar.. i`m having one of those day now .. where i wake up aimlessly doing nothing rotting but do not have the urge to go out of the house. . i have been home since 4 am yesterday .. i`m not tired i`m just lazy .. i`m not having a peak nor anything ..alot of things going tru my head but nothing seems to make sense .. actualy those thing going tru my head are just trying to indicated that exams are aproaching and alot has to be done .. and alot had not been done .. this exam determines my future. . i dun realli like being preasured but wat to do .. life is all about these things. . hahaha .. and other things which i`m thinking about is .. izzit me or just that i seem to fight with immature idiots .. ppl who cant think rationaly .. i mean i have no problems with mature ppl cuz they think like me. .a small problem can be so small yet so big .. but when a big matter rise they can actualy deny it .. for exam .. i started a joke as in trying to irritate my fren .. but my this called fren took it quite serious and ended up with saying something the both of us will regret good eh ?? well it happen to me twice or more .. but somethings can heppen the other way around .. u may think its small .. for eg : stabbing my back .. but for ur info .. its alright if u wanna do it .. if it does not do any harm to my relationships with my fren right "?? open ur mouth aimlessly just trying to hide the fact that u were one of them but putting my name on to the table ..and then trying to act naive .. please lar. . no matter how much u push .. u wont be able to acomplish wats beyond ur limits.. for example ..u try to close ur bonding with my frens by sacrificing the friendship of u and me .. izzit worth it ?? and end up loosing out the most .. all i can say now is u earn wat u deserve .. not that i have anything to do with it. . for all my frens they would know .. most of the time i would not result in fights .. because i belive force is not the best solution towards everything .. for instance we can sit down and talk nicely .. or just ignore ..but for me to sit and talk can be done when things does not go out of control .. once it is .. i dun think i would care anymore ..because things has gone beyond wat i would have expected and i would never wan to waste my time talking to u as my efforts would be put to waste ..i would rather just ignore u for the time being unless u show me something like a sign of ur changing to be a better person .. things can be so simple if u think nicely .. a simple sincere sorry and i would not do it again .. and taking efforts in showing me a changed person .. thats just all .. ofcourse things wont be like back then .. but u still get to keep me as a fren .. but then again ... i would not be as good to go talk to u again as i asked for several confession ..u did not answer my question with the answer i wanted .. going around asking my close frens would not change the fact that i`m pissed ..or should i say i`m not pissed .. i dun even fucking care no more :) thats how bad izzit .. if i`m pissed about it that shows good sign that i cared for our friendship.. but towards ignorance ... its the worst .. by not doing anyhthing would be best ...thats me .. onli few person undestands me .. thats ofcourse my close fren since young .. not all but a few .. or should i say .. not even more then 5 handful of them .. put urself in my shoes .. if a person have forsaken ur trust .. use ur friendship in vain and put u into deep shiits .. do u still fucking care about him ?? i would not ..now i enjoy watching that person rotting in club tru out all the nights .. sometimes i felt sympathy but it has not change the fact that u were the 1 who ruin everything :) enjoy ur glamour while it last .. sometimes frens are presents sent by god in ur journey of life to aid u in life .. they can be there for ur ups and downs .. and wise versa friends can be ur enemies due to certain reasons .. a fren will not last as some of them might be brained washed by saturn to ruin ur life ..due to several factors such as greed .. but those with strong beliefs shall triumph over saturns offerings :)

something new!

2007-09-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

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hmmmmm......

2007-09-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

today i shall annouce that its time for me to "PAI KUAN" in cantonese literaly means stopingm myself from any sorts of entertainments besides my comp !! hahah !! no extra activities !! no clubbing and no more crazy shiits !! for 2 months !! have to concentrate on my studies !! hahahah .. well sry to all my friends!! hahahahha :) as the guy u know last time is gonna be lame and pathetic and un sporting for this 2 months !! hahah all hail neerdy me !! wahahha =D pathetic me !! haizh i this year was nice !! very short but i enjoyed everyday of it .. altou majority of it was being wasted aimlessly !! it was fun !! we did alot of stuff.. all these stuff was sweet till every last bitss ..and i owe them to all my friends.. enemy now or not .. i still treasure em :) it was a memorable time :) life is short and we should enjoy while we can .. and not end up ranting like a bitch saying .. how i wish i could have do this and that !! life has been great .. meet alot of new frens far and near. . have been clubbing like LOADs thx to david !! which was fun .. but expensive :P hahah and i know i owe u loads .. dun worry one fine day ... i shall treat u back .. i alwiz keep my words just that i dun know how long does it take to fulfil it !!the onli thing that i`m realli worried about it whether i can get into a uni at aus .. and i`m still thinking about going to aus or not .. becuz i have loads that i cant let go here ...gosh i`m so figure minded !! haizh .. hahaha well i have another good 5 months more !! hahahah trials like next week.. all my uni entrance depends on it.. haizh .. i hope that i`ll do good..a lil back track on my life these few weeks... hahah 1ST of all I WAS DITCH several times by MISS THAM YI WEN !!hahahahhah .. and many more .. lar .. i went club alot.. bought a new bag ... lets c... hmmmm nothing else gua :P well thats all lar :P hahahah

something my fren bought =X

2007-08-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

hahah today i`m gonna post about something my fren bought for me a few months back !! hahahah .. WELL SRY LAR FOR BEING BUSY !! hahahah neways i had some spare time today so i might aswell add some pics =D since alot of ppl say my blog is kinda wordy !! and boring !!! hahahahah.. alright the gay accent thing was a present by nigel.. hahaha its dam freaky !! hahahah !! but well its kewl !! hahahahahaha

hmmm...

2007-08-17T04:47:00.000-07:00

well to all of my readers that was wondering why i brought my blog down for a few weeks ?? well yeah holidays just started =D and I had a great party last night .. will update on that later on .. the reason why did i bring the blog down because. .i wanted to update the skins .. (if u think ur so important for me to bring my blog down .. i could not careless. .if thats wat u think that makes u happy then i shall be that way..) well the sad thing is !! i cannot find a single skin that suits me !! SIGHS i feel like killing ppls now days... alot of things happened lately.. because of these misunderstanding .. i have lost a couple of frens .. well it might seem that i`m a lil too stuborn .. well .. thats me !! hahaha .. i could not careless .. neways .. so yeah i cant find a suitable blogskin .. so it shall remain as the current one .. hahaha... well lets start of with the things happen few weeks back alright .. i went for yilin`s farewel party.. and i kinda ignored my old best friend! hahah thats me !! if u wanna know wat happen its long story.. well its beeen clubing night all along this whole month ... unexpected ones and expected ones .. which cause me to become broke ==!! haha another reason that why i`m broke is cuz geeky me bought a psp !! so i`m broke now !! hahah thats another reason y i did not blog about anything for the past few weeks .. psp has been entertaining me !! hahah geek eh ?? hahah well yesterday was a celebration of the arival of my holidays !! i went club ... madigras.. which is superb .. one of the best nights .. we had 5-6 bottles of drinks ==! which is about 1.8-2k hahaha broke leh all of us .. those present were siang . mohan and his bro , david , audrey , alvin , wei hui and ivan . johnson and frens .. and ben and janice !! it was fun as we dance ..OF COURSE ANOTHER DUDE I CANNOT FORGET DAYA hahaha the canadian dude .. hahaha well ..thats all i could remember .. we drank till all of us fall .. and well as usuall i did not even feel tipsy.. well ==! SaD eh !! ppl getting high and wasted knocked out .. while i was rotting .. well .. i dance wit a few chix .. hahah ..after party. . we went to darusalam .. well some on the 1st day knowing him ditch me !! hahaha blardy hell wey !! hahaha wel forgiven .. cuz he was drunk .. advice him during drinking time .. they drink like mad .. samore crazy... kena bottles up how many times !!! hahah well 5 sec was cuz of me lar. . hahah sad eh ?? hahahaha besides that .. siang was knocked out too .. david was tipsy and joe was abit drunk .. oh ya did i mention jeowin was there ==! hahaha well sry my readers i dun usually upload photos .. but sometimes u can check em out in my friendster :P hahahaha ...we went to darusalam and found outself got ditch by ppls so we continue with the plan .. so we were chilling out there with malcom .. haha he was there too .. hahaha.. well after everything ended .. i sent daya home and went home to bed ... =D today was more hetic then ever .. hahah i went to subang in the morning fetching evon to parade .. cuz she had a very heavy bag .. hahah so after doing that i went down to pyramid ..i bumped into bryan .. while he was walking to his car .. he dam BABI he knows ppl wants his parking so he walk like its dam fun like that .. so i decided to scold kau him .. so i called his phone .. he asked me .. wats up . i said fucker u walk dam zhat slow right ?? hahahah then he turn back .. he saw my car. . well after parking my car i went to redbox to find david soojin and shereen .. hahaha we were singing k there .. but as usualy i dun like to sing so i just chilled out there.. cuz david was alone .. and being a good fren i was there for him .. hahah well wat can u say i`m just good.. after that i went back to klang .. went over danny`s to pick up some stuff for the party in my house which is now .. hahah and went over to bukit tinggi to buy some fruits for the choco fountain and head over to satay kajang to buy satay and went home. . hahahahah now they are having a party and i`m rotting here .. hahaha .. im good wey !!! hahah thats all for now.. i have officialy open my blog to every1 .. i would not be sory for wat i have done cuz i`m not the person that who is sapose to be doing the apologies .. so i shall not bother about it .....a word of wisdom .. dreams as u live forever .. live like u`ll die tomolo .. we would know wat will happen in the future so .. we should treasure every moments we have and filled it with joy and laughters =D take care all !!!

the reason behind my actions ...

2007-07-16T08:03:00.000-07:00

alright ppls .. if u guys have been wondering about wat happen .. wat changed me .. well .. nothing much .. its just something normal .. when i'm pissed with something .. i dun realli care after that.. thats how i am .. being blame for everything is not something good alright .. besides that .. i`m not the onli person who did say anything about it .. and i did not mention anything to the respective person .. well i was frame .. alright .. besides that..things in life has been kind to me .. but not this time. . well i'm no rich kid .. so i dun get to spend like mad. . i dun get to own the things i want. ussualy i get it on my own .. alright ..i had an arguement with my dad .. about me wanting a new comp but he with his fucking stupid ass brains thinks that my comp is still good.. alright .. if it is good i would not wan to change .. it hangs like every day.. not onli that .. its slow and everything is just ZZz.. i cant even play a proper game or do anything besides surfing the net and downloading songs..i seriously dun agree with ppls who thinks i`m like living a dream life or anything .. it sucks .. haizh .. ppl wont understand it.. maybe some do .. well the fact that if ur good to me i`ll repay in ten folds i dun like ppl who says oh i`ll do this when i ..........complete the sentence on ur own .. and end up being like iayar far lar this lar that lar.. if ur so reluctant to do it .. just dun do it .. dun go saying that ur giving me face. . and dun try to just act like ur such a big shot to me .. hell yeah i'll play along with u .. and another thing is saying things and not doing them is something i hate most.. once again i make myself clear.. if ur reluctant to go .. i wont force .. dun try to give me excuses alright ?? promises are made to ensure the person holds to his/her words and not breaking it .. if ur not sure then do not confirm .. or just reject.. i hate waiting ..if i offer my aid appreciate it as if u dun i wont do it again .. and another thing ..pls be abit more alert ur asking a favour .. when ur asking it .. do not assume that i will do it .. thats becuz i wont be that nice anymore.. and plus do not force a person .. when ppl give u a hint .. saying that he does not want to do it .. just stop asking .. and find another solution .. as i said if u dun keep ur words why would i do u more favours .. if u think that ur smarter then me in anyways ..u should find ur own solutions and not rely on me :)

i shall post something today =D

2007-07-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

mmmm..the tittle is a little bit meaningless =D hahahah .. well yesterday we had a belated birthday celebration for David Kok =D well yeah he just turn 18 .. offcialy legal for clubs .. well .. it was a supprise birthday party.. organize by Soo Jin .. hahah well it was pulled out nicely.. altou i was late and all .. yeah ..SHOUT OUT TO WEI HUI !! I'M SORY FOR BEING LATE .. hahaha well .. lets talk about ppls who were there.. hmmm ..1st of there is boon jin , wei juan , jason , jeremy , shang hong , sian , ah gan , julias , wei hui , ivan , malcom , mun yong , linda ,keat and 2 other gurls .. hahah well it was fun as we bang DAvid real hard =D flamming lamborgini =D hahaha .. well he was dam high yesterday .. and well i admit we might have some probs here and there .. well we are still good frens :) heheh .. and i kinda spend alot yesterday =X about rm 150 like that ==! hahahah .. jagoya sounds cheaper =D well no worries .. its all okay =D hahahah its not like money can buy everything .. memories are priceless .. hahaha .. well get back to the point .. we had 1 chivas and another bottle of absolute vodka blue .. hmmm then for the finale we had magarita blue .. which causes us to have brain freeze =X hahah .. well lets talk about the whole process .. so it started like any other normal day .. or not so normal .. i was home the whole day til 6pm =X hahah very rare .. alright .. i went down to jeo's hse .. pick him up and left for asia we had a few games there.. but it was alright .. so after gaming we went for dinner with malcom .. then we left to pick jeremy .. after picking him up .. we went to pick up siang .. but then siang ditch us =D when we were almost reaching .. well nvm .. we went straight to hartamas then .. wei hui was texting me .. telling me that she is leaving ==! i`m so sory.. alright .. we reach and she was pissed .. she was with ivan .. alright ..we settle down .. and few mins later kuan lin apear =D .. and it was 11 plus =X he was like where is every 1.. i said normal lar .. malaysian time =D hahahah alright alright .. he was dam pissed... becuz he had a curfew it was b4 12 =D hahaha well he extended it til almost 1.. hahah so after that .. all start to come edi lar. . then finally the birthday boy shows himself.. and we supprise him with a birthday cake and sang him a birthday song =D hahahah and me jeo and malcom left quite early .. hahah ..well he havent buy him a present yet .. but it will come soon =D hahahah =D he does not know about it .. hahahah =D guesse we are a bunch of slackers =D .. haizh the downfall of this event is the part where i was wronly blame for killing the mood for an event which he wanted .. but it is all okay now =Xheheheh

lying is sinful and self comforting is just as bad ...

2007-07-14T00:41:00.000-07:00

The fact that i have a bitch in my class ..praticaly fine with it .. being some1 who thinks that she is being the miss glamourous in the class does not change the fact that she is being a bitch . so what if she gets better grades then me .. but the fact that she thinks ppl like her alot and hates every1 she hates is being label as a stupid dumb fuck bitch .. oh well atleast i dun have to rely on my parents wealth to show of how sincere a friendship can be . This bitch makes the driver drives in her father's 7 series into the college being some kinda big time shiit .. so wat if ur dad owns some big time 7 series 730LI big deal .. and what if 150k is a small matter to ur father ..atleast if u wanna brag .. brag when u have it ..not when ur driving some cheap 80k car and says that ur dad wants to buy u some expensive car.. i dun usualy call ppl names .. but ur on my list bitch .. besides bitch u own urself a tittle far superior then others .. a boasting machine ..bbm<-- bitch boasting machine .. thats how u ar .. sayin that the whole college hates me does not change the fact do u even know part of the college .. being in ur little group of 6 does not mean the whole college u dumb fuck bitch ..wat if u bring ur notebook to class and shows of typing notes using it .. wat if the notebook u own is like 5k ? wat if u change ur phone every few months .. big deal ?? this wealth does not belong to u .. this wealth belongs to ur father .. wat if i switch cars with my family .. i did not say those car belongs to me .. and ofcourse using a prirated branded bag is nothing big to be showing off.. atleast i dun carry fake stuff around and claims that it is original.. so yeah i may not be rich atleast i`m happy with my life .. not being a bitch that complains about everything .. so wat if i like to brag about my trips to aus .. atleast it is things that i did not i did not do .. atleast i dun go telling every1 that hei .. 150 is cheap u know .. and the next min .. driving an 80k car.. get a life bitch .. so wat if i drive a lousy gen2 big deal ?? wat if i only hang out in clubs and thinks that techno is fine .. atleast i dun lie to myself. .reality check .. being such a bitch does not brings u far.. ur personality is just as pathetic as taylors 4 floors of stairs .. being step on everyday .. even when ur being such a bitch .. atleast i still undergo the trouble to call up some 1 to inform u bitch .. and it would be my last time .. as i would not even wan to waste a single cent on meaningless phone call .. and likewise .. lying can only get u this far.. and being bitchy and backstabbing can bring u only towards the extent that ppl hate u ..showing off and being mummy's gurl just shows how naive u ar.. regardless of how much education u had .. ur just those avarage dumb fuck naive bitch who thinks everything must go acording to ur way..when reality hits u .. i shall be the 1 remembering everything sec that u shed tear and luffing my way off =D... oh evil me.. to all my readers .. this post is onli specialy dedicated to a person . those of u , who are curious and wants to find out the person that i just discribe .. ask me personaly :) and for u bitch .. SELF COMFORTING IS THE ONLY THING THAT SUITS A PERSON LIKE U .. DONT ONLY U RUINED OUR FRIENDSHIP AND OTHERS AS WELL ..

updates...

2007-07-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

Basicly college started as u guys know alot happen lately .. well.. some sad some happy .. some abit the ZZ lar.. 1st off .. i finaly bought the stuff i wanted to get quite some time ago .. well those around me will know wat izzit.. hehehe .. and i got my self a new pair of shoesmy phone is being a bitch now .. lag like mad. . sighs !! and alots more .lar... haizh ..alot of my frenz birthday this month ..1st of i missed peggy`s which is bad ... and well yi rhu .. thx god i wished her in time .. regardless of being late for 20 mins .. haizh .. badee me.. well there is yi wen`s birthday too... and wei juan`s was few days back .. and the coming 1 is sab`s then later on david .. sighs. . like combo onli .. well sighs !! i'm broke .. thx to the shoes and stuffs ... haizh .. well i realli need to sort my financial out nicely.. its too costly... i shall remain anti social for the time being =D hahahaha .. as if it would happen.. i wish ! hahahahah =D the fact that .. everything is going not as planed.. well .. i hope i can achive good grades and go aus to further my studies... haizh .. ppl take the easy route i took sam ..haizh .. sad case.. and i even took math for being ignorant and think that i could survive... i`m not a math wiz.. that i can asure u .. but haizh .. well i shall c how everything turns out.. stupid me!

updates on life ~!

2007-06-20T17:37:00.000-07:00

well well .. HOLIDAYS ARE OVER ... haizh !! THATS very saddening larh .. ehehhe .. but during the holidays i did enjoy alot .. dispite the 1st few days which my allowence was cut and drop till like almost nothing .. hahaha thats something with my family.. ARGGHH !! they like to keep me broke during the holidays !! oh well .. after a few arguements .. everything turn back normal .. hahaha okay... basicly wat i did during the holidays was just plan lame larh ... hahaha half nerd and half dun know watever larh !! been club 3 times on 2 weeks thats kinda good .. cuz i expected more .. but i actualy rejected alot .. hahah been sick for a few days .. not realli feeling well till now too .. having a bad cough !hmmm so yeah .. back to the holidays .. basicly it was movies , gaming and clubing . i watch a few movies .. fantastic four 2 , spiderman 3 , sherk 3 and next thats wat i could remember .. and went to ruums twice and maison once. . well it was alright .. but the funniest thing was i meet a few frens there ..and i kinda know them and not know them larh .. it was weird i meet a few leo seniors there too .. haha he ask me did i just arrive .. i said no.. i`m leaving soon ==! hahah he said y?? so early .. i told him i`m bored and i`m going to asia to play dota... he was shock !! he said WTF ? ppl so hard to come club u guys rather .. go dota then club .. weirdo.. hahah well the fact that i`m now into dota .. not so new news i guesse.hahaha but not realli addicted lar. .just like to play onli lar..hahaha so i went of to asia .. =D i know it sounded very geekish !! hahaha then during the holidays i actualy ffk alot.. hahah and now crown fong fei kei wong .. which means king of ditchers .. hahahah basicly .. i dun find .. and the fact that i ditch about 4 times onli more or less is not much wert .. hahaha i`m thinking of ways to ditch more.. hahaha but then i have this thing all that chains me.. my frenz right.. if i dun wan to or i`m lazy its considered as ditching .. well the irony is i`m alwiz lazy and sleepy.. hahaha..and during the holidays my life was a total messed it was nuts .. no night no morning lar thats wat u called in hokkien lar .. hahaha i missed my frens birthday .. i`m so sry peggy yi rhu and yi wen .. I PROMISE I'LL DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT once i get used to the college life again .. hahaha then during the last few days of my holidays my idiotic fren came back from singapore and tot of giving me a supprise got sounding from me becuz i wanted him to get me some stuff from the airport.. DAI SEI .. hahaha alot of things happen then .. hahaha i`m now in the librarry typing this .. hahaha having esl class .. and waitin for it to be over.. stupid presentation .. next week probly my turn >.< SOB SOB.. hahah well happy everyone . i did do an update upon request .. ahaha take care u guys .. tilll later days !!

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2007-05-30T12:32:00.000-07:00

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2007-05-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

looks like alot of things happen to me lately =D some goods and bads .. well 1st of i`m broke -.- i mean like WTF man begining of holiday and i`m broke .. well there is a certain reasons that cause me to be broke.. alright let me share funny things happen lately .. okay well there is this guy name jeremy ong =D well he was with me david and wei juan .. the 4 of us was in the car.. for u guys who dont know .. we 4 kinda like dam close fren larh .. hahah there are more of us .. neways its like this .. he called me mr gan ( for ur info my surname is gan full name is gan eu vin) okay well i was like yes mr.... (opss i forgot his surname) so i started like eh wats ur surname ar jeremy .. well his 1st reaction was WTF? u know me for so long and blablablablabla and it goes on .. he was dam pissed .. okay then he said eh wei juan .. tell him my surname .. wei juan says ermm jeremy ar wats ur surname ar i also forgot .. then he got nothing to say edi .. then he started nagging and sounding us again .. we were like OH GOD MAKE HIM STOP then he stop somehow..and he finaly ask his good fren david ..(they know each other for about 3 years edi) here it goes .. eh .. david tell this 2 so called fren of mine my surname ..u know wat.. david`s reply was EH U SERIOUSLY NEVER TELL ME B4 UR SURNAME.. he emo like shiit wey .. went silent for like 10 mins ..and then we start recalling ..at the end we remember IT WAS ONG .. funny shits wey ... <--- its like we planed but actualy we did not =D that shows how good memories we have =D and how good are we as fren .. hahaha well .. few days later .. something funny happen again.. it was him again .. i was playing dota in asia ..well he called .. he asked me whether i wan to yam zha or not .. i said eh not now larh .. haha later .. he said y?? i`m playing dota..so i said eh wan to play or not ?? we come fetch u larh .. hahha being a very good fren ..but he rejected my offer .. he said i got no mood ..CUZ I JUST BROKE UP WITH MY GF .. and my reations was owh .. okay .. bye !! hhahah HE STRAIGHT ON THE STOP FUCKED ME UP AND DOWN hahah he said .. wat fucking kinda of fren i am man .. 1st forget my name later show me no support when i`m down .. then i said larh eh i playing game larh neways later yam zha larh .. then he went back to rest .. alright then he called like 20 mins later and say .. eh i dun wan yam zha edi larh so late edi .. then right .. i said owh okay.. nvm then..after that 20 mins later we finish our game edi .. and it was getting boring. . so we went and find food .. aka yam zha larh .. so we called him.. and this time he got dam freaking emo .. hahahah he said wtf man u show me no support and now wake me up from my sleep.. at the end he came out also larh .. with a bad mood.. hahah screwing my all da way..hahaha ....seriously man it was not our fault =D but it turned into some kinda comedy shiits =D

Thanks for the memories

2007-05-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

alright .. this may look like i`m copying well yeah !! its fall out boy's song .. hahaha well its nice =D neways quite some time now since i last blog !! well alots of changes has been done to me while i`m taking a hell of a time with this course i`m doing in taylors .. hell its torturing and it has done torments to me..causing hell load of brain damage .. well for starters... i dun know why.. but now days i tend to be like lazy all da time .. i can reject outing just for something else ..eg sleeping !! well sry to my frens .. i know sometime when u guys count on me .. i ter ffk u guys !! but not alwiz ..i`m sry if i ever ditch u !! <---specialy dedicated to jeremy , sliva , silas, david and loads more !! hahahah c i actualy ask for forgiveness !! well .. sort of emoish now days !! i dun know why ..hahaha and i found out alot about my frens -.- techincaly my high school frens !! hahaha some of them are just as un predictable as the weather .. alright .. enuff of this long winding.. for starters .. i have been doing quite well .. i did alot of stuff i would not imaging myself doing .. well some parts are good some parts are bad ... well i`m not prefect so are every1 .. so just bare with it or leave as u like :).talk about sanity.. i cant belive i actualy played games while the next day i`m having exam. even more keng ... i played after exam ..and knowing tomolo i got exam .. i type this knowing that tomolo i`m having econs test .. how siao of me .. well thats me .. hahaha i`ve been wondering alot this few days ..am i a good fren or not ?? well for those reading this u can leave me a shoutout =D tell me whether i`m good or not ?? ahhaha for starters .. i remember my frens birthdays ... most of them .. if u actualy notice i`m seldom late =D regardless of the importance of that patricular thing or event .. hahaha ..sometiems yes .. i`m not god i dun control trafic jams and break downs .. hahaha blame me for the rest .. now i was talking to my frens from high school just few hours ago .. my frens birthday so i actualy called him and sort of talk cock lar... i started of like just normaly calling him for dota..then later on ...i start cocking a lil .. and he used his birthday rights .. LIKE HEI U KNOW WAT!! STOP IT !! its my birthday !! my reaction was ..YEAH I KNOW !! hahah thats y i actualy call .. hahaha to kacau onli .. well he said i`m the lord of cocking because he knew me since we were little toddler age of 8-9 ?? hahah we were in the same primary school .. hahaha well loads happen and shits to happen sometime ago .. if we`re to tell our stories out .. its like a action pack comedy .. hahah serious ..he said that from the time i know him till now .. he has never seen me not a single day not bombing (term arguing and alwiz results winning) ppl .. hahaha ..his name is dharemen !! happy birthday !! u nigga!! hahah i dun have his picture .. i`m so sry .. okay another guy who knows me since that age.. Nigel loon.. he is another primary school fren of mine.. we are best frens to this moment .. we praticaly know each other well .. we know when one of us are angry .. hahah we have the same taste ..we share alot of memories togather .. and i've meet him in the weirdest way .. hahah well if u wan to know .. ask me then hahaha..okay he is another innocent guy larh .. due to his 1 year younger then me .. hahaha he said that i've corrupted him .. or should i say they both... they said that i've influence them.. hahaha.. well we did alot of crazy things..and nigel was also in leo which is y i got no fucking idea y he calls me a player .. cuz in leo he alwiz sees me with gurls !! i mean like wtf?? not that i have a choice ..hahahah..well the both of them is just funny and chilling to hang out with .. sometimes when i have nothing to do .. they are actualy best companion to hang out with. . there are a few more good frens like cheng yang .. hahaha he is like of my kind .. well size and all but his nice =D and his alwiz there for u when u need -.- but SOMETIMES VERY hard to find .. and there is shaun .. well i admit we have our own lifes now =D god bless u with all to brighten up ur future... if u choose to be buyers i`m sry .. but i too can be that ..well these are not the onli frens i have in high school .. i`m not into raise and all i mean .. i hang out with any types of raise...let me list down a few of them ... arif razman , dick shen , bryan , kok beng ,william , damien , bernard , kiddy , zue yuan , wei haw , francis , soon sayn , frederick , safwan ,andy ,johnathan , kenneth and many more larh .. sry if i missed out .. neways we have our own ways now .. so all i can say is all da best and gud luck .. god bless and take care =D...

serious lack of post.. my life in the pass few months

2007-04-05T07:55:00.000-07:00

WHEW.. how i treasure the times that i`m free !! with this new thing called sam ..south aus matt ..has made me change !! for better or for worse !! 1st of all i`m okay ... its not bad larh the class and all !! abits here and there !! okay !! lets start off with something i hate 1st !! hahaha i kinda like dislike math !! not hate but dislike !! heheh last time i use to hate it larh now abit better !! good teacher mar !! hahaha neways my math teacher is mrs lim !! superb !! haha .. i think i can understand larh !! its form 6 add math and for me without add math backgroud !! to understand !! u must be thinking that i`m joking right ?? haha serious !! okay besides math !! i have accounting !! which i have a superb teacher which is called mrs ngam !! she is one of my best accounting teacher !! -.- y accounting teacher dun stay 1 ?? like my old ones !! those useless realli tak boleh pakai !! okay back to accounting its okay !! its less pratical !! its more on theory !! and the theory is more like moral in spm !! we need understanding and keywords mostly definition and explaination !! abit sad lar !! but okay larh my new accounts teacher is mrs chan hmmmmm then right my econs teacher ... i`m alwiz okay with my econs teacher !! and puan nor is just superb..very nice =D then i have english as 2nd language .. i hate the subject cuz its very lame !! and the teacher !! just for the record !! pathetic!!! wahah then malay is just a piece of crap and thats about all of my subjects !! it may sound easy!! but in reality its not !! class times is monday to thursday 8-3 friday 8-1 but due to change of time table !! classes changed time !! still starts at 8 but onli monday my class ends at 2 and so does my friday !! not for long !! weeeeee!! wahahha so back to this sam !! its endless exams , presentation , homework and assignments .. so think twice b4 entering yaz !! but its good for those who wants to finish ur matriculation asap but its very compress cuz basicly we are covering year 11 -12 =D hehehe okay ..its been some time since i last post on any pics =D so i shall do so !! hahahah bear with me !! hahah .. hmmm lifes been so far so fair !! none misfortune !! and hope it stays that way !! lord !! haha =D i`m happy for once but bored in the extent lifeless !! no chilling out !! hanging out all !! nothing at all !! sighs right ?? i`m also broke !! due to the fact that i have 2 fren`s birthday coming up and so on !! then few weeks back !! it has been a month of wild life !!~ for the 1st time i actually argreed on going clubing -.- or should i say i was force !! well yeah i think the onli ppls that has this kinda power to ask me to go clubs is david kok !! well i dun know y but its fun larh !! sometimes !! but sometimes very sien !! sien when i dun get to drink !! but i`m trying to cut down !! hahah okay back to story !! basicly this happen on a friday !! i was sapose to have my sisters food testing !! okay so i went back to klang for food testing then my so called hengtai called me ... then i was like y he call me oh?? cuz ahaha he knows i`m alwiz in klang during fridays unless i tells him !! haha so i called him back !! his 1st question !! eh wanna go club ?? my reactions was HUH ?? serious ?? he said yeah !! i`m like dun wan larh !! he stills wants me to go !! hahah ask me to teman him !! so i was been persuade !! so i ask where 1st ?? he said maison !! i`m like with who ?? he said with his college frens ?? i said okay larh then !! and i actualy went !! but it was worth it larh i meet some new frens there and tried a special drink !! its called swing =D ahah the bottle is dam funny weey !! okay then the next day i was at hartamas with david again and nigel and soo jin !! okay okay !! so that was the 1st time of that month !! then 2nd time !! -.- this is the most pathetic 1!! this time there is alot of ppl acompanying him and he still wants me to go !! -.-!! okay okay again he persuaded me !! i said okay !! but i dun wan to go till very late larh !! and i said i`m gona stay over his hse !! okay okay everything set !! went over to his hse ! waited for him then went over to joe`s hse and pick him up !! then later went to taipan and have our dinner ....waited for jeremy then rush to maison again !! this time i went in free again 1 the 1st time i was treated by a gurl this time another gurl !! dam proud wey hahaha..okay okay lets skip this part ...it was r n b night .. basicly ladies night .. alot of ppl and the place is like going wild hahaha and i dun quite like it .. then my fren called .. bryan .. he know that i went maison !! then he ask me how to come ..i ask him to called another ppl... then he found his way here..but his underage .. hahah thats abit sad.. and no more pax for free entrence then .. suddenly i meet him outside.. he said eh how now ? finaly i brought them inside ... thx to audrey !! thx alot !! then finish clubing .. about 3 something ... went home ..david`s hse reach about 4 something and sleep...till 7 something kok beng called .. thx god ..and i was late for class .. quickly rush to 15 .. and luckily there is a parking infront of taylors waiting for me !! i feel so proud of myself !! lucky ass right ?? then went to class like half dead..every 1 asking me y i smell like smoke !! and i`m looking like a zombie !! atleast i had my bath !! okay okay ..basicly i fell asleep in alot of classes .. and then called up shu zhen and ask her to follow me back =D i let her drive lar !! hahaah cuz i`m dyin half way!! so she drove me home !! and i went home and took my bath and change into speks !! thx god my eyes feel better !! okay thats 24 hours with 4 hours of sleep !! thats not even close to finish !! went to port klang for lunch plus breakfast !! okay ... then ... went back to usj and pick up david .. cuz i`m sapose to go collect my memory card in mines -.- okay okay .. after that .. i tot i can go home edi !! but he ended up pulling me to hartamas !! i was like OMG !! u serious ?? i`m half dead !! then he said go larh .. then realli go !! but went back to subang cuz we took the wrong road and went back to oug and pick up soo jin !! so basicly me shu zhen david and soo jin went to hartamas !! looking for these cheese steamboat !! -.- and the shop close edi larh !! after look for 2 hours 11 plus ... siang brought us to my car and we drove to damansara perdana and have hokkien mee .. klang have better food larh dey !! ahaha okay okay end up 2 am onli went back home reach about 3 something ..straight take my bath and went to bed !! then tomolo cheng beng .. have to wake up at 6 am !! god !! 24 hours times 2 48 hours with onli 5 hours of sleep !! thats enuff sad !! then went for that thing i`m sensitive towars those jostick !! and plus i`m somekinda christian so i was advoiding it !! hahah .. then after that i went back home !! i sleep till 8 something ...if ur me right ?? i think the next day ur probly die !! hahah but thx god i was able to go through it !! hahahah

how i hate malaysia zZz

2007-01-27T03:36:00.000-08:00

malaysia = suck .. rules here is just pathetic ... i just came out from a junction and i did my turn .. and complete my turn .. then i park infront of the gate waiting to enter pass the guard house .. so then ... this proton wira came and knock my back left hand side .. well it seems to be his fault .. and somehow i turn to be my fault ?? WTF seriously i got compound rm 200 and 8 demerit .. there goes my licesen .. fuck the world ... god u gave me a bad belated birthday present ... this is just sad ..and my dad sounded me .. and my bro was the 1 who gave me the idea of reporting the police at 1st the person argreed to pay ...so how it turns out like shiit haizh times like make me think back how nice was it to not drive actualy .. i argree that we have alot of freedom in choosing alot of things but ..the parkings the blames and all just doesnt worth it .. i just wanna finish this sam asap and go overseas where i dun have to face malaysia and the fucked up system .. this is a shout out to idris bin aris FUCK U i hope that when u die u end up in hell .. fucker

wat i call funny =D

2006-12-25T10:26:00.000-08:00

1st of all merry x`mas to all my readers!! wahaha ... neways ... sorry for the lack of updates.. neways .. my life goes on .. even i wish it could slow down a lil .. hehehe..okay .. on the 23 of dec .. the eve of x`mas eve.. i was in ss15 hanging out with my frenz .. in souk<-- correct spelling .. not zouk !! i`m a good boy :) i dun club=D wahahah.. alright ..back to the story.. hahaha we`re chilling out .. planing wat to do on x`mas .. we`re planing on going to clubs .. then most of us .. dont want to pack with the rest of those celebratin x`mas. . so we started with crazy suggestions .. 1st of was ... how bout steamboat :P easy to do .. but all of us like go out and eat better right ?? hahaha then i said owh how about bbq !~! wahahha .. then slient for a few secs .. then they start to say .. eh y not ?? how about doing it in jeremy`s hse.. hahaha then started larh ...but then .. we all like 50/50 onli .. so basicly the thing ended like that .. but then when i reach home .. after yam zha !! shang hong .. msg me in msn.. was like eh serious on ar ..bbq..look for bbq set. . suddenly i`m like EH U SERIOUS ?!! he said yeah .. u suggested .. and we alright with it ..then ... i`m like stone for a few secs .. then i said alright larh then .. u look around for the bbq set ... its funny that ..the things actualy did work out .. so early in the morning .. i went to subang to pick shang hong out .. and yilin to come all the way to klang for bak kut teh .. then later on meet up with john and kenneth .. for tom yam !! wahahh it was funny weh ! we all craping all da way .. wahahha then .. after having lunch all .we drop john and went to tesco and shop for bbq stuff. . ahahah we went tesco and gaint .. after finishing everything .. i went back and took my bath .. and head off to shang hong`s hse .. then .. we was like ..eh y not have it in david`s place .. since he said can . .wahaha so we end up having in david`s place .. and it rock .. we had xo and bacardi .. and beer XD whahaha... so basicly .. thats my x`mas .. after cleaning up it was 2 plus plus .. so we went for yam zha again .. and i reach home about ..almost 7 hahah .. check all my msg and mails .. went to bed .. about 7 something .. then later on my sis woke me up at 11 am and ask me to send her to subang .. so i did and have my brunch at auntie june`s wahahah .. then went back home .. sleep till 6 something .. went out with james for dinner ..and watch movie .. the curse of the golden flower. . it was alright .. BUT GONG LI WAS SEXY IN THAT MOVIE !! WEEEEEEEEE and i`m here now typing this .. wahahah

izzit me or just my life ?

2006-12-18T04:11:00.000-08:00

mmmmz... this post sounds abit emo !! ahah .. well certainly it is :) wahahha well sometimes i wonder .. izzit my hobby to fight with frenz around me ! wahhaha ..maybe most of u who knows me well .. i can go along with ppl very well ..and the other way around =D wahahah just some how i dun like pathetic idiots doing something stupid ..maybe if they dun mess with me i`m alright :) not as in fooling around .. but doing something stupid .. as in stabing ppl .. being iresponsible and telling other ppls secrets and all larh .. when i cant stand it i`ll sound the person .. if the person takes it hard. . then i have no coments larh .. cuz its u making a fool of urself ... i`m trying to correct ur actions .. those who know who u ar .. its not the 1st time.. as in pls think b4 u act .. maybe larh u should be more responsible of ur actions and dun expect ppl to help yaz out ... well lets make things simple !! i can tolerate with idiots but aint to the extend of fucking idiots .. who dont listen ... 1st time and so i forgive yaz .. too often .. u take care of urself larh .. blekz =D lazy wanna type edi ... ciaoz

my life goes on like this !!

2006-12-16T10:14:00.000-08:00

so back to where we were.. after my spm .. things going wild .. heheh .. coming home late and going out in the middle of the night... best part is ... i dun get sounding for that ! wahhaa .. alright lets turn back time :) hehehe on the 8 of dec .. i went for prom ..star school prom ..at kec .. which is fun xD we had great performance .. by dragon red.. head banging sial !! wahhaa then .. later after that we had after party in james` hse.. we had 2 xo and 1 bacardi .. well its cerntainly enuff to make alot of ppl drunk there ... those who attended the after prom party was .. me ofcourse ! james ! yi wen ! wei juan(gay boy) .. bryan .. and bernard and tee liang i think. hwhaha.. owh owh yaz there was nigel too !! wahha almost forgot.. quite long edi .. bad memories !! hahah .. so we were drinking all da way .. 1st off we played a game of big or small !! when every 1 is ready in da mood and getting all high and shiits !! we played true or dare !! the funniest thing is the 1st person to fall out was the person who i dare him to sit beside me ! whaha de gay boy !! trying to challange me all .. next time try harder :) i dun fall that easily wahha ... alright ... and so on .. i end up being the last 1 standing ... kinda sad tou .. i wanted to get drunk but i was far from sober itself !! so i drove home and enjoy my lovely bed :P wahahha with 2 other guys -.- haha i wish it was gurls :P wahahah well thats just my fantasy !! ahahha the next day we .. woke up early in the morning to bring yi wen out for breakfast !! its like we slept at 6 and have to wake up at 9 omg right ? ! wahhah well then we brought her for dim sum then later on .. wan tan mee .. hahaha after all that we went home and sleep til 3 something .. then we woke up and fetch those ppl back to subang .. then me and nigel and bryan went and catch a movie !! ... ahah well after the movie .. we decided to go to murni`s thats the part where .. i kinda fought with my fren .. well i dun care much larh sometimes .. my mood is bad its bad .. who care neways ... so after all this shiit .. i went home and get a good rest ... actualy not so good larh .. hahah neways its more then enuff .. plus i dun think i got alot of loyal readers :) so take care for now .. wahha here are some pics: ) enjoy !!

lack of updates

2006-11-29T21:14:00.000-08:00

back guys ... hhmmmz.. sry for thel ack of updates. . hahah .. maybe time flies .. i`m like so busy everyday .. life is starting to more complicated then it was .. hehehe .. good news is which 1 of my fren is back from singapore.. whahaha.. so now days .. idun drive around often .. ahah lazy asS !wahah ... hmmzm so thats a good thing.. but well things had not change 1 bit... responsible pondering my door step everyday !! ahahha .. i might be working for my dad early of 2007.. probly til march or something .. hehez... spm is almost over.. cant belive. . my high school life is juz like a blink of an eye ... whahah back when i was young i`m like -.- so many years more .. and now i cant belive it .. i`m so happy hahah .. all this will be history .. no doubt that high school life is fun . it has its ups and downs.. hahaha .. sad part is which i`m in an all guy school >.< wahahahz.. thats so izh izh ... whahaha ..tsk tsk ...i`m going for the so called ilegal star prom .. hehehz. . now to think back ... leo has change me alot .. hahah i`m learning to love my life .. wahahaz... cuz its consider good compare to others.. haizh hahah .. the grass alwiz look greenier on the other side.. whahahz.. well meet a few new frenz and been chilling with them quite of them .. ahahah after ditching my old gang .. wahahz... nomand eh ? wahahhz. . well i get over things very fast.. now i`m juz left with memories about the olden days .. ahahah i miss those days i`m working in jusco ... not cuz of the work larh .. cuz of my frenz .. ahahah it was like hmmz getting so called free money larh .. wahhaha almost free larh .. wat u have to do is some cleaning and some long standing hours .. hahaha ... neways i dun think any1 realli knows that i have a blog .. hahaha ... so feel free to tag if ur free .. ciaoz

ups and downs :)

2006-10-20T04:57:00.000-07:00

in life we basicly face ups and downs all da time ... well yeah its da same as our pay checks... as long as we work we get paid .. but what happens when we dont work we dun get paid right ?sometimes u may think i wish i can buy that thing without working for it ? as in like u wanna own something without working hell out of urself for it ? in malaysia wats the basic pay for degree holders , a range of Rm 1.8k- Rm 2.2k depending on ur field.. truly its higher then wat ordinary ppls get..well lets face da fact after high school u have about min 3 years to study b4 u can finish ur degree when ur fully equip and starts working .. lets say u pick da degree accountant after finishing ur acca or watever.. u still need to under go training for about 3 years thats a whole 6 years and come out with a pay of a range from Rm3k - Rm4k well after dumping a whole 6 years and about 200k into ur so called bright future.. thats a whole new definition of bright.. some ppls who work after high school could have use this 200k to start something and on their way to the millionaire club while ur struggling to make ends meet :) thats just part of the problems.. the degree holder`s 6 years and the high school`s 6 years is a big diffrence .. ur juz starting to work ur way out of the thousandaire club while the high schoolers are on their way to they millionaire club :) in this world there is no such thing as the more u study the more smart u are but u end up being a walking knowladge bearer thats all unless u can apply all this knowladge onto ur work .. true that u secure ur future with that degree but now days degree arent the special anymore..

my life goes like this!

2006-10-15T19:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm on saturday .. i sleept quite late about 4 am well thats abit normal larh wahahah neways nothing special about that .. and the next morning i have to wake up at 9 am for breakfast..so i went all da way to paramout with my mum sis and my sister`s husband .. well then .. nothing special juz that the place was pack .. its like u every 1 is from bosnia there :P wahhaha so after having my breakfast .. my sister left us at ikea and follow her husband to sunway cuz he sorta stay there .. wahhah kinda boring aint it ? well thats where the fun stats .. we`re in da car and we wanted to go 1u to catch a movie but then we turn back out due to the traffic condition .. then i called up yi wen to check on the movie tickets .. well sold out also ? then we started thinking ways to kill time .. we started of by going back to bed ? then suddenly i was at gotong jaya having my dinner .. 4 pm dinner well after that .. we went straight up to genting .. well since it was an unexpected planning .. my sister`s husband wasnt realli prepared .. wahahh he was wearing 3 quarter .. so cant enter casino .. we went shoping in 1st world after geting a pair of pants .. i went lepaking .. then suddenly i end up in DA CASINO WHICH IS FOR 21 YEARS OLD wahahha the guards did not check on me .. wahahha well i was playing slot machine and this and that .. my mum gave me rm 200 to gamble O.o thats like LOL wahahhah my sis gave me another rm 50 its so freaking fun .. but i lost rm 30 onli LOL wahahah thats on slot machine .. i gave them back da money ...so dam weird larh ... started out as a normal shoping trip :) shoping at 1st world :) thats da 1st time .. actualy things like this happen quite often .. 1 min i`ll be in a place and another min who knows :) thats my life :) and i`m having spm .. i`m so dead wahahahah

Me

2006-10-10T04:59:00.000-07:00

well basicly those who read this blog should know me well enuff that i hate ppls who ffk alot basicly those juz do it last min ..and i do mean last min .. so likewise i juz left like that.. maybe its me thats too demanding or i`m not suitable to be hanging out with them .. so fine lar i walk away.. hahah neways lets put that aside.. now i`m startin to feel the stress of examination ..not them i`m tensed but somehow i felt a vast change of lifestyle indeed it has change and we ppl faces changes everyday from the smallest things to things that can effect ur life later on .. we have to determin our goals b4 going on a journey .. well i`ve encounter alot of ppl who thinks of living a simple life .. simple life these days aint any simple now cuz money dun grow on trees .. basicly whatever we need is all related to money.. face the fact money is not everything but money can do alot of things.. those who think that they can earn 5k a month to raise a family now seems abit dim ..its hardly sufficient.. and i also encounter ppls who takes life as if he was playing a game.. he does everything which he thinks its right its fun its convinient for him or her.. they said that they wanna earn big bucks in the near future but all they do is play .. dreams are only dreams if u do not make an effort to achive these dreams . well this is certainly a long post ._. it might be abit emo wahahha but somehow it makes sense and its copyright ..

yours in lazyness
euvin

De dog !

2006-09-30T23:55:00.000-07:00

alot of my frenz knowz that i`m so called affraid of dogs wahahha .. but recently my bro bought a dog its a pure breed chow chow well i dun realli have a good shot at it :) he likes to move around .. his naughty as ever :)

Lists of animes :)

2006-09-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

well basicly here ar some list of animes to watch if u plan to kill time :)
new stuff !
1.school rumble season 2
2.air gear
3.black blood bothers
4.Utawarerumono
5.Kamisama kazoku
6.Ouran high school host club
7.tonagura

thats for all larh :)